New here! Been going through the worst panic ever!

[gypsy79]

HI all!! I am new to this sight and I won't bore y'all with my long story of how I am what I am... I am terrified of v'ing! Terrified. I have dealt with this for many years I am 33 now and it started when I was 13. For the past week my phobia has went into overdrive. My husband was sick with v****ing and D. It was really bad and it scared me to death! He said it was food poisioning because we ate out the night before and he said the chicken tasted funny but he ate it anyhow. Well that was 12 days ago and I never v'd but now.... For the last four days I have had D. Only in the mornings but it is freaking me out. It won't stop and I haven't hardly ate in 4 days. As soon as I wake up I have stomach cramps then I barely make it to the toilet and its d for sure. THen I will be fine for about 2 hours and it will hit me one more time then I am fine for the rest of the day! IT's so weird. You know how we are with knowing about certain viruses and stomach bugs. This is not like any of those. I am so scared that this will turn into me v'ing that I won't eat except maybe a saltine cracker or two. I have lost 4lbs already just from starving.. I have had the worst panic attacks of my life because of this! I am starting therapy next week. Today I just started on ativan and lexapro. THe ativan has helped with my nausea real or in my mind I have also been very n**** every morning. Maybe it's IBS which I do have but has not been a problem for me in years! Please any advice on what you think would be causing morning D would be greatly appreciated. MY nerves are a wreck!

[AoD]

If the ativan helped with the nausea, I'd say it was partly because of anxiety that you were feeling ill (it's an anti-anxiety drug with no anti-emetic properties). So you can comfort yourself with the fact that it is stress based and probably not a virus Especially if you had d* for so many days, it's very very unlikely to be a virus that will turn into v*. It very well could be that the d* is caused by stress as well. Also, if you eat so little, there's very little food to counteract your stomach's acidity so your intestines might not be able to properly neutralize all of it, which can cause d*. Try to eat bland foods in normal quantities, especially plain white rice. It is known to help alleviate d*. Hope you feel better soon, but I'm sure you won't v* from this!