Today it will be better!

[Jackiek31]

My emet has been the worst it has ever been the past couple of months for some reason. I barely leave the house and skip school all the time, keep my kids cooped up in the house when they are out of school in case they "catch" something. I have also lost a ton of weight from not eating. I'm 5'9 and was 140lbs, I am now at 124lbs. The constant fear has just gotten to be too much. Maybe I had to hit a bottom in order to take steps to get better.
Today I decided I can't live like this anymore. Even if it's just baby steps, I've got to do something.I dropped my kids off at school and then went to class.I forced myself to sit through all of it and I did not have a panic attack while in class (which is unusual, My emet kicks in pretty hard when I'm around a lot of people). I also am going out to eat tonight with my husband and children. I know this might not seem like a big deal but it is for me. I have not been out to eat in months from the fear of "bad" food.
I can beat this. I CAN do it!
Sorry if this seems like a pep talk to myself, I guess it kind of is. I'm just going to go slow and figure it out as I go along. Best of luck to everyone today as you deal with your struggles as well. We can all get through this

[Grace47]

Nope, this is just fine. Any step is a good one. It sounds like you're off and running. Congratulations! You've done a lot of good things today. If you have to, leave notes around the house encouraging yourself. I know it sounds silly, but it's a positive thinking technique I read about in a book and it has helped me achieve many goals and feel better about myself over the years.

[Jackiek31]

Thank you! That actually is a good idea, I will start that tonight!

[Grace47]

I just want to point out that today is already a better day.

[Amanda Pomerenke]

This is very inspirational! Good luck, let us know how it goes

[jennjt]

This is awesome! It's like we have a switch that flips and we say, "That's enough-- can't live like this anymore." Sounds like you're there and are doing lots of positive things today! Enjoy dinner with your family!

[cycle]

if this was facebook, i would 'like' it.

[lealmeida]

So inspirational! Love it(:

[Jackiek31]

Update:
Went out to eat with my husband and kids. I only used my hand sanitizer three times, haha! I actually had a hard time eating, all the fears of unclean food running through my head. BUT...I did it! I have to be honest, I did panic a little last night after we got home but I forced myself to stay calm. I think I have not had a real meal in so long my stomach was just not used to it.
I feel good this morning, I want to see what else I can do to push myself to get better.

[Grace47]

WTG Jackie!

[Amanda Pomerenke]

That is awesome! I will DEFINITELY keep that in mind next time I go out to eat Hopefully one day I'll be able to eat in restaurants

[jess0930]

WOOHOO! You go and do that! Good for you!

[chris_alice]

Update:
Went out to eat with my husband and kids. I only used my hand sanitizer three times, haha! I actually had a hard time eating, all the fears of unclean food running through my head. BUT...I did it! I have to be honest, I did panic a little last night after we got home but I forced myself to stay calm. I think I have not had a real meal in so long my stomach was just not used to it.
I feel good this morning, I want to see what else I can do to push myself to get better.

WOW you did so well! See what you can do when you put your mind to it? Good job!!! You should be VERY proud of yourself.