It's so nice ( and quite a relief i might add..lol) to know im not crazy[img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]..i have suffered with this fear all my life i dont know why it just was always there. I know when i was expecting my daughter it was the first thing to cross my mind( btw i never got morning sickness thank goodness..i did get the 24 hour stomach flu when i was in my second trimester)..i mean i wassingle i was unemployed but my first thought when i found out was " omg what am i going to do when this kid gets sick?[img]smileys/smilies_10.gif[/img]" my instinct has always been to run as far from whoever was sick as possible..cant do that when you're the parent and i can tell you i was terrified. A friend telling me that she got sick everytime her kids were so i would too didnt help. First time she had the flu she was 3 and i freaked..probably got sick just from the fear that i may get it from her..i would take care of her then excuse myself to another room fall on the floor in a heap shaking uncontrollably teeth chattering and crying..then when she needed me again i would pick myself up off the floor go take care of her then start the whole process over again. The last time i was sick was last summer i actually got it worse than my daughter..i hadnt been sick that much since i was 12 and im 32 now..but i can tell you when my kid was running with me to the bathroom and holding my hand i felt like the worse mother in the world. I am just so glad there are people like me that i can share these feelings with and help get through those times ..that well we wont mention but we know what times i mean..lol..Anyway thanx so much for letting me be apart of this site I look forward to hearing from you all. Take care[img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]