Starting to overcome it!

[Amanda Pomerenke]

I've came a long way since I joined this site. I've only been here a month(actually, less than that I think) and I'm already getting better. Today I watched videos of people v'ing....like graphic videos of all levels. People of different ages, v'ing for different reasons, etc. I didn't get anxious at all. My boyfriend(a non emet) was more grossed out than me! I have no problem talking about it out loud anymore. And today I ate McDonalds REALLY fast. Like I ate a sandwich, and most of a medium fry within about 4 minutes. And it gave me a stomach ache, and I didn't even think irrational thoughts about it. I knew it was just because I haven't eaten all day, and eating so fast threw my stomach off. I didn't even really care that it hurt. I don't wash my hands before eating anymore(unless they are obviously dirty or I haven't washed them in a while), and overall I am thinking A LOT more rational. I think I might be able to handle it if somebody v'd in front of me for non contagious reasons now! One day that time will come, and until then I just have hope that things will continue getting better.

[Grace47]

That's fantastic, Amanda! You're really on your way. Congratulations!

[jmoore10]

That's awesome, Amanda! I really hope you can continue moving forward with your progress.
Good for you!

[Kinetic]

Sounds like you have made some significant progress Amanda, fantastic! I, like you now, don't care about handwashing constantly and I have witnessed others vomit for non-contagious reasons in front of me more times in the last month than my entire life! It did not bother me one bit
Well done .

[Amanda Pomerenke]

Thank you all And kinetic, wow that's great! I haven't seen anybody v in front of me since the summer time, but I'm hoping that when the time comes I can handle it!

[Grace47]

You're both doing great. Pats on the back to both of you.

[sadie1001]

Awesome, Amanda and Kinetic!! keep up the great work--I know it's not easy, but you're on your way to not letting emet. control your life and every waking thought!! How freeing!!! So happy for you! I used to be much worse myself, but through having kids and through therapy I have made progress as well. I can talk about it as well and not be triggered, I can watch mild v* scenes and be OK. My main problem still is germs and sv's.

[Amanda Pomerenke]

Props to you Sadie, it's great you are also getting better

[mommyto3]

great job...this is perfect inspiration for me right now!!! are you in therapy also?

[Amanda Pomerenke]

Yes I am in therapy as well; although, I don't talk about emet much in there. But thank you, I'm glad this post is inspiration :'D