Week four of CBT

[Greta1074]

Well. It's been a rough ride. My stepson was nauseous on Monday after and left school early. I really panicked but I came home. He was fine. Then Wednesday at 5am my year old son vomited. He kept on throughout the day and I coped well. My stepsons had gone to their mum's at this point and my husband and I worked together to get him better. By the evening he was fine again but he was sick in the early evening. I felt so anxious that I had done something wrong. Thursday is my CBT day and I had to left him with his dad pretty much all day long. I realised my husband wasn't really giving him any fluids and I asked him to give him ice chips. While I was in my therapy the doctor suggested I stay next time anyone is ill. Also we went through my survey results. They were truly enlightening. All the results showed my fear made everything longer and scarier then it really was. I felt enlightened as I came out of the session. On my way home my husband said the boys mother texted that they both were vomiting. Both boys! We agreed to discuss what I felt comfortable with. Whether I could stay or go with my little one. When I walked in the door my son cried out for me. He felt really light and frail. My husband was staying to feel ill too. We talked about it and I packed up some stuff and left. I wasn't panicking I just wanted to look after my little bit because he was so weak. I needed to focus 100% on him and not my phobia. My husband called and we spoke through the night. He was very ill. He was sick maybe 3 times. He supported my being away. I've pleaded with him to keep the boys at their mum's house for at least a couple days. Maybe one day I can take care of three sick boys at once and not be anixious about vomit. Right now I'm not totally freaking but I am worried. I can not tell what's normal in this situation. I do know I have to get my baby better and thanks all I'm focusing on right now.

[Grace47]

Rome wasn't built in a day. You're handling this much better than you have in the past. It's tough to get past such an intense fear. You're getting there. Good job taking care of your sick son.

[bebzorg]

Taking care of your sick son is a huge accomplishment! Im sure your stepsons mother would want to take care of her sons so you shouldnt feel bad about that, and your husband is a grown man who can take of himself. Besides he seems to be very understanding so I would say everything is under control. Your baby will get better they always do but I know its hard to see your little ones in pain. best of luck to you during these tough times.

[Greta1074]

My little boy and went to a&e. he's fine. Just a little bit dehydrated. I could hear something like vomiting while we waited behind the curtain. I was ok. I accepted that this is life but that doesn't mean I like it or want to be around if or even feel ready to rush to even see it. I spoke to the doctor about being a phobic. He was shocked. He had never met an Emetophobic before. It felt good to identify with my triumphs and explain how this situation affects me. There has been talk of me getting the virus although I may have had it already. The boys both were sick and states with their mum until their grandmother came to care for them. This was a first ! Normally their mum would drag them down in the snow dying rather than keep them with her. So, that was a positive. My husband still isn't 100%. But he's keen to have them home with us. I am at my other place with the baby who is sleeping almost all the time but recovering. You ladies really supported me with your comments. Thank you.

[RAZRBAKK]

I know I haven't been following, but I just wanted to say that I am happy this is going so well for you. I'm currently in a state of panic over absolutely nothing, and I know that I could not deal with it the way you did.

Congratulations on coming this far, and I really hope you find complete recovery some day.

[Greta1074]

Thank you. I felt a constant anxiety too. I found homeopathic remedies helped a lot. Can you buy any or get to speak to a practitioner? A few if them really reduced my anxiety before my baby was sick
I wish you luck and strength x