I had a hell of a week. My little bit was sick for eight days. Real proper Noro stuff. And my husband got it and so did both step kids. All at once. Really took a lot of prayer to get through. I was fine with my son but I hid out at my old flat. I couldn't face the rest of the family. We ended up twice at the emergency room. There were a couple people wretching both times.

When I got to Thursday's session she mentioned exposure. How nervous certain places and situations would make me judged on a scale of 1-100. She noted them down. She said ages been looking for videos to watch and smells to bring in. It's getting real. I mean the whole exposure thing is a little terrifying. I don't realise how well I managed to avoid information about vting and that means I don't actually know what I'm frightened of. I couldn't tell you what I am avoiding. I learned loads about it from the survey and my son. I just don't believe other people being ill will be that harmless. I took care of him and cleaned up because I want him to get better and to be comfortable. Everyone else I think can control it and choose to be sick. I know this isn't true but shifting my beliefs is hard. Avoiding and scanning are making recovery difficult. I'm working in that now