Re: Strange compulsions
I always take a glass of water to bed, ever since my phobia started. My mom always joked that I was like the little girl from the movie Signs because I had cups of water all over my room, haha.
I also always have all my other comfort items nearby when I go to bed. My water, my ipad or laptop, a book, my phone, mints, zofran and gum all within my reach. If I am going to a friends house, I still take all that stuff and will set it in my bag or in a purse and lay in next to me while I sleep. It's like I prepare myself not to be ill, but to just panic, because it's all things I use to calm down.
“Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.”
“We are the girls with anxiety disorders, filled appointment books, five-year plans. We take ourselves very, very seriously. We are the peacemakers, the do-gooders, the givers, the savers. We are on time, overly prepared, well read, and witty, intellectually curious, always moving. We pride ourselves on getting as little sleep as possible and thrive on self-deprivation. We drink coffee, a lot of it. We are on birth control, Prozac, and multivitamins. We are relentless, judgmental with ourselves, and forgiving to others. We never want to be as passive-aggressive as our mothers, never want to marry men as uninspired as our fathers. We are the daughters of the feminists who said, “You can be anything,” and we heard, “You have to be everything.”
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Originally Posted by jennjt
