I found it!

[Eternity]

The one helpful, un-arrogant, brilliant inspired doctor in the entire NHS, Im in shock. I mean what are the chances really? Im terribly lucky. So... she stopped the beta blockers, is putting me on a anti anxiety /anti depressant instead which is what i asked for in the first place, and an anti emetic to stop any side effects, and shes sent me for psyche.. err referal or something, theyre gonna write to me. But she didnt patronise me, she knew what emetophobia was, and she actually bothered to take the time to answer my questions properly. I want to keepherrrrrr..! I bet the waiting list is a mile long to get to be one of her patients. (at the moment i see someone different everytime cuz im not properly regesitered).

[sparky2004]

Eternity, I am glad that you have finally found a doctor that not only believes you, but understands you. It's rare to find these types of compassionate doctors.


There is a light at the end of the tunnel.

[shiva]

This is great news! I am so glad you were able to find yourself the kind of help that you deserve.

[Galadriel]

Way to go Eternity!! I am very glad you found a good one! See they are out there! [img]smileys/smilies_02.gif[/img]

[hippychick]

Is her name by any chance Dr Smith...cos if so you stole her from me hehe I'm so glad you found someone who will help!

[Jenneh]

FANTASTIC!


at last. u deserve it.


Jen xxx

[SimplyMe]

YAY! Congratulations! I'm so happy for you!

[2jo2]

OMG, that made my day!!!! I am so happy for you! [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[samara's on tv]

YAY! You are very lucky to find a therapist to work with! Congrats!


~Monica

[Eternity]

Shes not a therapist, just a GP, but since ya need one of those to get anywhere it seems, shes a good thing.


Haha no shes not called dr smith


Someone tell me anti emetics always work? Ive to start taking these anti anxiety thingies now, and I have some anti emetics because more than 1 in 10 ppl get nausea from this drug :s Anti emetics always work right? and... ya know how they say take three times a day, if I take one before I go to bed will it wear off before I wake up ? =/ My worst nightmare is waking up sick. Ugh. It doesnt matter anyway because I haveto take them, but I dont want that to happennnn *sighs*

[hippychick]

When I took an anti depressant I got very ill, however because I was on anti emetics I never actually V* but there is no doubt in my mind I would have without the anti emetics, it was very real nausea. I used to time my anti emetics right down to the second, every 8 hours on the dot i took one. I'm not like that anymore now i just take em if i feel really sick.


Ah Dr Smith, she saved my life I think and I have to say I was more than a little bit in love with her hehe. She was so patient and had no issues at all with home visits when needed. Anyway...she had a baby and I've not seen her since lol


Umm...enough trip down memory lane here lol

[Eternity]

Thanks. thats exactly what I want to hear to make me feel better =/


If Id known they dont stop nausea Id not have taken either them or the anti anxiety thing f*** f*** f***... this time I decided not to read up cuz it makes me worse.


Im not sure whether Id rather actually get sick n get it over with than feel bad nausea for a really long time like days n days Im scared now I dont even want to be on meds, why am I doing this to myself? [img]smileys/smilies_11.gif[/img]


Edited by: Eternity

[hippychick]

Oh honey sorry I didn't mean to scare you. The reaction I had was very RARE the Dr was even shocked because it never ever happens to people. I should also point out that I was having a nervous breakdown at the time so my sense may have been heightened ok? I really didn't mean to install fear into you, because a.) the anti emetics do help and b.) so do anti anxiety meds and the nausea wasn't days and days it was one day!!!!!! Not even a whole day, one episode that we dont even know was caused by the drugs, like I say the Dr was shocked. Please dont be put off trying, I know so many people who never get any effects. My mum comes on and off anti depressants once a month LOL and she has never V* from them and trust me she would, she has the weakest stomach in the world.

[Eternity]

Bleh, Im ok now, sorry that was asilly overreaction, but that wasnt what I wanted to read 2 minutes after taking the first dose of a new medication.


Anyway Im fine, I dont even feel sick, I'm gonna keep taking the anti emetics anyway though at least for a few days cuz I haveto up the dose of the other pills soon so may get some side effects then.


I know that nausea is a common side effect from anti depressants, more than one in 10 ppl it says on the package, and the doc actually said one in FIVE [img]smileys/smilies_11.gif[/img]but that vomitting is rare, which is nice.

[Eternity]

Eek that wasnt nice... ok so- (not graphic)


I was lyin there quite happily watching tv n realised I had like a half hour to go before my next anti emetic. start feeling a lil bit nauseas or did i start feeling that n then think only half a hour to go, cant decide, all so close together, n anyway then i start feeling pretty rotton pretty quick it was weird... really sick like i dint wanna talk, n i usually wont shut up unless im pretty ill, n yet the smell of food dint make me feel worse n i was still sorta hungry- totally contridictory...


neway in the end it got so bad i thought i might actually throw up so i took my next anti emetic a half hour early, (or what i thought was half hour early- i f***ed up my times already lol twas actually about 20 minutes late, if youre goin for the taking them dead on every 8 hours thing which i was gonna)


anyway 5 minutes after that I feel better, 15 minutes after I feel fine, either these are really f***ing good, or it was all in my head and just believing i had taken something to stop it, stopped it. Grrr either way I dont like it. I dont feel like my stomach is upset, now I feel 100% fine, n a bit hyper, but as it comes upto my next dose Im gonna be all nervous n expecting something to happen n if i expect it then its 10 times more likely that it will isnt it?


Grr.one f***ing day Ive had these things and already Im dependant its disgusting I HATE medication of any kind without them Id have just had to chill and get over it, or throw up, with them I now feel like in a few hours I NEED another one or I WILL be sick n thats not nice.


Oh and another thing. Im due on my period two days ago, which means its gotta start soon n I shall be in painnnn as well.


/rant


Yes yes I know Id be even more annoyed if Id not been able to get medication, I know that this is what I wanted and I believe that it will work, but it takes three weeks to kick in, so I feel that Ive earnt the right to be as paranoid and irritating as hell until it does, after all, I went through hell these past few weeks to get here. Nows the time to kick back n wait n whine like crazy till these start working. lol. It may after all be the very last chance I get.


Love yas. nite nite. Edited by: Eternity