New and thankful you are all here...

[LeTired]

I can't tell any of you what it is like to meet people who have the same issues as I do, and have for as long as I can remember. So here goes... I'm 31 years old with a 7 year old daughter and a wonderful husband (he is her step-dad). I have been an emet since about the age of 5 or 6. I come from a large family and am the youngest of 6 kids; I was the kid that was always sick. I have so many terrible memories from when I was a child that include v* or fear of v*. I feel like my anxiety started from my many horrible experiences with this.
Flash to now... I am a caregiver, believe it or not, for mentally handicapped adults and have been for almost 13 years. I never thought that I would be an emet working in the healthcare field and I have often thought that I must just be a glutton for punishment I have depression, panic disorder, and severe social anxiety. Honestly, I have never felt normal. There is no one else in my life, or that I have ever met, that has understood how fully this phobia effects my life. I don't tell many people. I AM AFRAID OF EVERYTHING! There have been points in my life that I can remember feeling kind of ok, but never fully at ease. These days I'm terrified to go to sleep because I might wake up sick. I have terrible panic attacks and many of them are nocturnal, but ALL of them include horrible n*. I live my life in what seems to be a constant state of n*. No one in my life who knows about this phobia understands at all; they all say, "at least if you v* you'll feel better." Wrong. If I were to realize how often I think about v* throughout a normal day I would have to say about 30-40 seperate times. I know this is just not normal, but it has been a part of my life for so long that I don't know any other way of being. I also feel like it stops me from being the mom I want to be because I am constantly in fear that my daughter will v*!
All of you that have posted on here have changed my life! I have read so many posts and you are all so brave! Reading the experiences, stories, and fears on this site tell me that maybe, just maybe, I'm ok.

[daffodil]

Welcome!

[donna1216]

Welcome!! I have a 7 year old too!! (And a 13 year old, and an 11 year old, and a 5 year old)

[jennjt]

Welcome! You are definitely not alone. I am 31, have a 3 1/2 yr old daughter and have suffered from this since age 7, I think. I never really v* as a child (I mean, of course I did, but it was way less than the average child, I think), but I remember every event in my life that it happened to me or someone around me. It's like a flashback or something?! Anyway, there is lots of great support here!

[LeTired]

Thank you! There is so much good information here that I have spent a long time just reading

[Mamafear]

Welcome! You've come to a brilliant place! It's become my pacifier. I've a 7, nearly 8 y o girl, a 3 yr old girl, and 2 boys, 11 and 13. , and if there is onething that seems to have come out of our many posts is that Emet Mums are great Mums, and that is because we care about making up for our perceived shortcoming tenfold in other ways. You will feel like you're amongst family here. Really look forward to knowing you. X

[LeTired]

You are all so welcoming and wonderful!

[socitycourty]

welcome, I've got a 9 month old daughter and also take care of my 1 year old niece full time, my anxiety has been at an all time high recently too!

There's so much help here and I've made a few rreally caring friends

[Kittycat319]

Welcome! I definitely know how you feel, even though I'm only 17 I've been suffering from emet since I was about 6. I know what you mean about thinking about v* all the time (as I probably think about it around 40 times a day myself) as a little kid I thought it was just normal and that everyone thought that way but eventually I realized it wasn't the case. I too am always frightened that I am going to wake up sick
Anyway I'm very glad you joined this website! I'm quite knew myself but everyone on here has been such a help and so friendly

I hope this helps you a lot as well

[hershegal]

I am new her as well, and I am looking forward to having individuals to share my challenges with