Scared to death but doing it anyway

[jess0930]

Last August I gave birth to my son 6 weeks early. He weighed in at 3 pounds 15 ounces. He got out of the NICU after 10 days but was in and out for 2 months from seizures and bad choking/not breathing spells. Yesterday Ashton (my son) and I had an appointment. His was a check up and mine was for my pregnancy. I am 17 weeks pregnant with our second. While the doctor was looking Ashton over to see how his development physically was she started asking me questions about behavioral development. He is 7 months old supposed to be almost 6 months old so he should be acting like a little closer to a 6 month old. Well, I guess his behavioral development is behind even for a 5 month old. That alone had me scared to death and now worried, but that's not it. With this pregnancy I was told I would need to be on progestrone shots till I was 36 weeks to keep me from having another premie baby. Progestrone is the hormone that allows you to have morning sickness either just in the first trimester or through the entire pregnancy. I was talking to the doctor about it and she said yes it does cause nausea. (as some of you know I have had quite a bit of nausea already with this pregnancy) I am so scared not only for my son but also to take this shot. But I am doing it anyway. With everything that my son has to go through and what my husband and I have had to and what we have to go through I can prevent all of this with my baby that is inside me. I really just want to cry. I feel like I could have prevented my 7 month old from having to go through all this stuff even tho there was really no sign of having him early. I feel so bad. But on the other hand I can say that I am so glad that my love for my children goes far beyond my phobia. And this gives me hope that for my children's sake, I can beat this. Please be praying for both me as I go through with these shots and also my son that he doesn't have anything mentally wrong that could cause him to be slower at developing also that I don't have another premie and for my husband to be able to handle me while I go through all my ups and downs of anxiety with this medicine and being nauseous.

[TryingToBeBrave]

I had my daughter early and got the shots with my son. They actually made me feel better and never nauseous. I had headaches, and they took those away...along with the contractions Don't worry about it...though the shots are not fun per se...no nausea.

[sdd]

Sweetie, do NOT worry about progesterone shots. I have had to have them with my last 2 pregnancies and never had a bit of nausea from them. No, side effects at all actually...except for 2 healthy babies....one is 9 and one is 12 months.

[SUM1]

That's all well and good, but I couldn't pray. I'm atheist.

[wiscomommy]

I had both the progesterone shots AND the vaginal suppositories, never got one ounce of nausea from them. Congrats!!

[jess0930]

Really? Oh wow that makes me feel better!!!!!!!! She told me all the ladies she has given it to have complained of nausea. I hope I am not the one who gets nausea. And I sure hope the shot works. I want so bad to carry this baby full term.

[Cynna]

Hugs, my son was a 29 weeker, my daughter 37. I had the shots early on due to ivf, I never got sick from them. They hurt though HUGS Prayers

[TryingToBeBrave]

They were probably just nauseous from pregnancy and not the shots and didn't know how to separate it. We did Invitro and multiple infertility cycles, and I had to use a lot of progesterone...none of any kind has ever made me nauseous at all! Hope for a healthy, full-term delivery for you!

[KimberlyP]

I haven't had those shots but I too had preemie babies. My first was 23 weeks and my second 25. I can relate to the feeling of guilt that if I had done something differently, my precious boys wouldn't have gone through what they went through. My oldest son was in the NICU for five months and my youngest for seven months. It was terrible so I think it's wonderful you're putting your phobia on the back burner for the health of your baby. I had my boys early because of preeclampsia. The medication they put you on makes you feel like crap (to me it felt almost exactly like noro) and with my youngest son I was a crying,blubbering fool getting it the second time. I knew how that medication would make me feel, so I refused it for hours. Finally I caved when they said that if I had a seizure, I'd make it but my baby definitely wouldn't. So I commend you for being so brave!! I wish I had your bravery when I went though that.

[jess0930]

I haven't had those shots but I too had preemie babies. My first was 23 weeks and my second 25. I can relate to the feeling of guilt that if I had done something differently, my precious boys wouldn't have gone through what they went through. My oldest son was in the NICU for five months and my youngest for seven months. It was terrible so I think it's wonderful you're putting your phobia on the back burner for the health of your baby. I had my boys early because of preeclampsia. The medication they put you on makes you feel like crap (to me it felt almost exactly like noro) and with my youngest son I was a crying,blubbering fool getting it the second time. I knew how that medication would make me feel, so I refused it for hours. Finally I caved when they said that if I had a seizure, I'd make it but my baby definitely wouldn't. So I commend you for being so brave!! I wish I had your bravery when I went though that.

The thing is you are brave! You still did it as hard as it was for you to do it! I am so sorry you and your family had to go through that. I know its so hard. When I first went in at 31 weeks my water had broke and they gave me so many different drugs. I remember feeling like crap for hours. At one point I was in so much pain and feeling so bad they had to give me morphine. But I am still so sorry. How are your babies now? I have felt guilt since I had my baby. He went through a lot and I still continue to have nightmares. he is still having a few troubles. Having a premie is so hard and I will be thankful to be able to carry to full term.

[sdd]

KimberlyP, I had preeclampsia with my pregnancies as well. I was warned about the magnesium sulfate b/c the one doctor in the practice told me she was going to put me on it. I had to have a c-section and got lucky enough not to have to go on the med...but after knowing what it makes you feel like, I have to say you are incredibly brave! You knew how it made you feel, yet you did it anyway for your baby. ((Hugs))