To say that I have never been so effing scared in my life is not exactly an underestimaton nor an understatement! [img]smileys/smilies_11.gif[/img][img]smileys/smilies_11.gif[/img]Lately I have been having some pretty bad heartburn and nausea, and my therapist wants to rule out any possible physical problem. She thinks I may have acid reflux disease or even IBS,but thought it would be wisest if I got it checked out with a GI (Gastroenterology)doctor. Well, that's where I was today...the GI doc. And I described to him my symptoms, as well as stating several times that I was terrified of v*, and he said he wanted to schedule an ultrasound for my gallbladder and an upper endoscopy sometime next week!!! AHHHH!!! [img]smileys/smilies_10.gif[/img][img]smileys/smilies_10.gif[/img]Now, I have spoken to Rich and Samara's on TV who have both had the procedure, I believe, or something similar, and they saidthey were fine, but I am still freaking out!! I could barely make it out of the doctor's office without crying!!! My mom had todrive us home!!I know, I'm such a wimp, huh? I mean, I have had two surgeries on my feet when I was 14, and lived through it, have been hospitalized for severe asthma when I was little, but this...I can't seem to get through...WHY??? UGHHH!!! I feel like such a freak and a wimpfor being so scared, yet I want so badly to back out of this!! However, my mom has already paid for it, and I know it would help me and my emet a lot to see if there is anything we can do to alleviate my symptoms. But I can't get past the fear of the procedure and it's possible effects!! I was shaking as the doctor described to me and my mom theprocedure. I heard something about spraying my mouth with something to stop my gag reflex (my earsperked up whenI heard the word'gag')and some possible complications, but I didn't get passed that! I was so scared, I probably like shrunk into a tiny ball! The doctor made some jokes like "I'd be sodoped upI wouldn't feel a thing", and he reassured me I wouldn't v*, but still! I can't let go of the fear!


I know that I am probably overestimating this and that it won't be as big a deal as I am making it, but tell that to the emet and my nerves!!


So if anyone has any words of advice or encouragement, or a magic wand,please anything, I would love to hear it!


I'm supposed to have an empty stomach the day of the procedure (I wanted to have it tomorrow to get it the hell over with, but the insurance probably wouldn't approve of it that fast.), so that does eliminate some chances of v*, right? But he said everyone reacts differently to the procedure!! [img]smileys/smilies_12.gif[/img]


I apologize if I sound like a complete mess, it's because I am! [img]smileys/smilies_09.gif[/img][img]smileys/smilies_09.gif[/img]


Thanks SOOOO much for listening to this rant! [img]smileys/smilies_09.gif[/img]Edited by: NCsmile6