It has been 10 years for me and with so rarely ever coming close to it really happening, despite the hundreds of panic attacks and times of thinking "This is the day it will happen."

I can pinpoint a few times where I really felt dreadful enough that it absolutely could have happened, but still didn't either due to my suppressing it or maybe I was just also overrating those times too and I wasn't ever really about to be sick.

That said, I guess I'm realizing a huge part of my fear now is that I don't really know what it will feel like if I am about to. I know you "just know" when it is really is about to happen, as I did when I got sick as a kid. But my mind is so crazy with being so sensitive to any nausea, any stomach cramp, pain, gurgle, etc. So that is my question... is anyone else afraid of that? Not knowing or remembering exactly what it is like when you're about to v* and then fearing EVERY little symptom that may make you feel that way?

Because with that mindset, you really could at any second v* when you're so scared of each stomach-related feeling you may have.