Thoughts

[Lauren9588]

So this may sound crazy... but since I have nothing else better to do at the moment I have been thinking about this phobia and the act of V* a lot. We are all so fearful, what kind of life is worth living if we are constantly thinking about our stomachs? I don't want to live this way anymore. I want to be able to go out to a fancy restaurant for dinner with my fiance and not once think about being afraid to eat or getting a stomach ache afterwards- ya know, like normal people probably do. We are so fixated on the bad that I think we forget to see the good sometimes. Like I said, this may sound crazy but has anyone ever experienced a positive outcome from a stomach issue? Whether it be dry heaving, V*, gas, nausea, etc? Well for me, as I have stated many times, I got sick to my stomach for the first time in years... 3 months ago due to a mixture of junk food and margaritas. 4 to be exact. Before the incident I was able to drink pretty casually... usually a bottle or 2 of Moscato (white wine) per weekend. And a couple margaritas every now and then. I guess you could say I was beginning to drink a little more last year and the alcohol was impairing some of my better judgement... not too extreme but enough to annoy people. Plus I had gained about 10 lbs from it. Long story short- after V* from drinking too much I have learned not to drink anymore. I can honestly say I have not drank in excess since the incident. I can barely hold a down a glass of wine without becoming nervous about throwing up again. I may have had about 3-4 drinks since New Years Eve and it's almost April now. I am proud of myself for making a change... life is surprisingly more relaxing without alcohol. Although I now have greater anxiety about V*... I am no longer harming my body with alcohol and that is something to be proud of. Maybe becoming sick had to happen... to show me that drinking is not the answer... its not all its cracked up to be and life is more rewarding without it. ... so this is me... trying to look at the positive side of my new found phobia. Any one else share similar experiences?

[XxLOVExX]

Change is good!! I know with all the issues i have been having it has been a wake up call that i need to make some life style changes, so i must say that is one positive that has come about with this phobia rearing its ugly head. That and i finally came clean to my family about how badly the emet effects my life. My husband has been so supportive about it and i am so thankful for that, cause i know if i need him to hold my hair back at 2am cause i am sick he will be there.