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[tygerfeet]

Hi!


I;m Jessicka (you can call me Jay) and I'm new, obviously. I've been lurking for a few months now and honestly up until that point I had no idea that emetophobia was an actual phobia or that there were people like me. I'm not as severe an emetophobic as a lot of you are being that for the most part it doesnt effect my day to day life quite as drastically but it still is a very real fear and it's comforting to know there are others out there.


I think I can pin point the main contributing factor to my emet to one HORRIBLE experiance when I was around 8 years old.


We used to have a swimming pool in our back yard and obviously in summer time me and my friends and family would spend almost every week end just staying out for hours on end. One saturday I had one of my little friends over and I think we were out in the pool from about 10 in the morning till about 7 at night and it was HOT and blazingly sunny out. I had very light hair at the time so unbeknownst to me I felt the effects of the sun much more than she did because she was dark skinned and dark haired. Anyways, the day goes by everythings dandy all I feel is just a little hot and tired right up until bed time.


Flash forward a few hours...


I woke up with this blinding tummy ache and thought I just needed to go to the bathroom really badly (we had been eating a lot of veggies and dip and crackers and chips and nuts and all kinds of stuff that would make you need to go becuase of the richness and the fiber content) so I pitter patter my way to the bathroom. About halfway down the hall, without warning, I v******d all over the wall...I was so shocked and horrified so I went to wake up my mom to tell her what happened...got to her room, got s***k again at the side of her bed and then again when she woke up and ushered me to the powder room.


This was just the start of it...I spent an entire TWO WEEKS being s***k to my stomach and I think the fear of having a spell that lasts that long again is what sparked my fear.


Just recently (well two christmases ago) I had another terrible experince that sort of enforced my fear.


There was a particularly bad flu going around and I got really n****s but didnt v***t, though that doestn mean I didnt think/fear I was going to. I made my significant other buy me just about everything to calm my tummy and nothing seemed to help, finally I resorted to gravol and took two pills thinking it would work wonders...WRONG....it only made me feel about a thousand times worse.


By this point I wanted to die and almost came close to just making myself s***k but couldnt do it...all I can say is gingerale is a godsend...I lived of o gingerale and later chocolate chip cookies for about a month...some banana to but that was pretty much it.


Ive come quite a long way in conquring my fear, I have it mostly under control but there are still a ton of quirks about myself that I know come from this and are probably just really annoying to everyone around me.


- I wont...WILL NOT touch anything of mine or touch my face after my hands come in conact with something of someone who isnt feeling well or has the flu


-I DONT share drinks or food with anyone


-I use hand sanitizer religiously


-There is ALWAYS gingerale in my fridge and Pepto in my medicine cabinet


-I won't consume dairy products on the day of their expiry date or past then


-I have to smell everything before I eat it


- I tend to overcook my meat


-if there is even the slightest hint of curdled cream in my coffee (even if its just a little fleck) I have to throw it out and get new


There is a ton more but Ive made a long enough introductory post as it is...and I'm quite tired so I think I'll leave it at that

[Jenneh]

hey Jay,


am glad you've finally come across us if you think it will give you abit of comfort e.t.c.


what you expereinces sounds absolutely terrible... that would BE my worst nightmare and more.


i'm glad that you feel the emet isnt as debilitating as it could be if you let it... got to keep as much control over it as you can.


are you getting/thinking of getting any help for it?


Jen xxx