Feeling really rubbish today.

[LaurenCasey]

Hey!

So today is a bad day for me I've had such a positive week as well. Some of you may have seen my previous post about moving to Australia for 6 - 12 months and initially, my phobia was overriding my excitement but this week I haven't let it beat me. I've adapted a "so what!" attitude and felt genuinely happy and positive, more so than I have done in the past 7 years since having this phobia.

I was feeling a bit off at my friend's house last night, not ill, just drained and a bit icky. I got home, had a hot chocolate and all was well. I did go to bed super late though and this usually plays havoc with my anxiety.

However, I woke up this morning feeling fine but after breakfast my tummy didn't feel happy at all. This instantly stressed me out and when I get stressed, the acid reflux kicks in at full force! So I've spent my day feeling really low and feeling a tad sorry for myself I guess I'm mad at myself for letting this put a downer on my positive mood. The acid reflux made me feel so ill earlier, I was sure something was going to happen. Although it has calmed down a little, I'm still feeling really grotty. I hate myself for having to come here and vent, I want to be a positive influence on everybody here but today, I'm really struggling to do that.

Today is one of those days where I want to climb into a hole with my duvet and not come out for a long time!

I'm sorry for whinging, I'm not even sure what I want anybody to say. I just wanted to let it all out in hope it might make me feel a tiny bit better!

[LittleFlo]

Hey Lauren - just seen this and wanted to reply. Another victory hun - Thursday you felt all that horrible anxiety it's going to happen - and it's now Monday and I'm presuming nothing happened you got through it fine! Well done you acid reflux is nasty - I have it at the moment due to kidney medication and it freaks me out... Maybe buy some over the counter remedies? Gaviscon (the pink bottle) is really good. Keep smiling little one x