I've been doing okay lately, but as of about a week ago, not so much.
At work there have been many people sick and it's very frustrating because they come into work when they are sick, or call in and are made to come in because were short staffed. Due to this I had a minor panick attack at work friday night. (My first in a VERY long time). I had to leave, telling my boss I wasn't feeling 100%.
Today I come into work and one of the girls (Who I work closely with) says she was sick last night! THROWING UP. And she STILL came into work. I asked her what was wrong and she told me she got food poisoning from stirfry, but her boyfriend didn't get it and he ate it as well. So now of course I'm worried that it wasn't food poisoning, but the stomac flu.
I can't stop worrying about it...and I was exposed and with her all morning, I have so much stuff to do all week...I work 5 days straight, am getting a manicure and going to a concert, then having people over. Too much stuff that I cannot get ill for.
I don't know what to do.
I'm freaking out.
.I just want to feel safe in my own skin. I just want to be happy again. I just want to feel deep in my own world. But I’m so lonely I don’t even want to be with myself. <3