My name is Amelia, & im 13, I've suffered from Emetophobia since I was about 6 years old, I've always had trouble with illness, and the fear of getting sick. When I was younger it was just abit of a pain to get sick, as I would get very nervous and would stop eating for very long periods of time. I have alot of anxiety issues, all have been brung on by Emetophobia.


When I was 6 I got bullied at school, I had a skin condition called impetigo, this made me very nervous and paranoid, also bringing on my anxiety, im very sensative, as I was very young I didn't realise how bad things had got.


When I was about 9 my fear of getting sick started to affect the way I lived my life normally, I found it incredibly hard to get to school, and eat or to even sleep, for a few months of my life I didn't leave the house at all. I was seeing many therapists at the time, but couldn't actually get to them due to the fact I wasn't leaving the house. I used to constantly complain about "my tummy hurts" meaning I was worried I was going to be ill.


When I was about 10 I wasn't getting to school normally, I wouldn't leave the house without getting panic attacks and making myself feel really sick and then making myself worse for the fear of getting sick. My therapist brung me out of school officialy when I was about 11 years old.


With all this going on i've been diagnosed with a mental illness, Depression,Obcessive compulsive disorder and an eating condition, i'm currently taking Prozac to help me with my Panic attacks and worrys, i've been on it for nearly a year now, and its helping. Very slowly.


My whole goal when I first came out of school was to get back there, but due to certain children being very mean to me, and me feeling it was impossible I have now given up, im not going to go back to school, however much I still want to, the worry of it makes me feels sick. Im currently home tutored, im on my holidays at the moment and im working on getting out and about, Public transport I would really like to start on, but at the moment I find it very hard to even get out in cars.


My fear ofvomitting has really messed my life up, I've always been a non conformist, I listen to "diffrent" music, and im into alot of weird and wonderful things, people treat me diffrent, and they would even if I didnt have this to deal with as well. In the future how ever near or far it is i'd like to just get out and about as much as I can, and make myself feel how I want to.


My fear of vommiting has got much better over the past few years, a few days ago I got very sick and was ill and I managed to cope with it and im eating normally again, hopfully it will get better, but even if im ever fully "cured" i've missed my child hood, and its destroyed me, and now im here to pick up the peices.


Theres my story, however sad it is, im okay with who I am, im only 13 and i've got my whole life ahead of me to sort out, just remember that anythings possible.


Thank you for reading.