I don't want my emet to ruin my graduation!

[chixy]

Hi guys. I'm new here so I'll start of this post with a brief introduction. If you only want to help me answer my question, just skip this paragraph:

I haven't vomited since i was around 7 i think. I'm 19 now. My emetophobia started about 3 or 4 years ago. I was rooming with my sister and during the night (while i was still awake) she v*d pretty violently pretty much right next to me. I think it was the "shock" and how unprepared i was for it that triggered the phobia. Also, i had been drinking the same night (yes, that was the last time i had alcohol) and i guess me feeling hungover and sick the following day made me anxious and worried that i might had catched what she had. It's pretty self explanatory. I wouldn't call my phobia extreme, at least not now. I have managed to take control over some of the things, i don't check dates on food, i eat in restuarants and i can go to parties for an hour or so. It depends on how people act at the party of course but under usual circumstances i can stay for about an hour or so and actually enjoy it. Mostly, i have the typical imaginative nauseous feeling pretty much non stop, i feel anxious about it and i make it worse etc etc (doubt i have to explain any of that, i think most emets have that!), i have that agoraphobic thing where i'm scared of v*ing in public and i have a hard time going to meetings, sitting in class and focusing etc etc. There are more things i do and think but i don't want to make this too long.

To my question or what i should call it. I have my graduation coming up (yay for graduating!! ) and i'm a weeee bit nervous about it. I live in Sweden and the basic of the graduation day is drinking morning to night and the thing is i really want to. I really, really want to just let go and have fun with my friends and enjoy my graduation. The day will go like this: champagne breakfast with my class - photography of the class - grad lunch where we'll all sit (together!! in a crowded room! alcohol everywhere! PLUS FOOD. gee!) and drink and eat together - actual graduation - i'll go home and my wish is to drink here as well, but what i WILL do for sure is eat again and stuff and celebrate with my relatives. After this i'm free to do whatever I want, there's a grad party at a bar, i can go with my friend into the city and party with here there (i'm sure you can imagine that being stressful with agoraphobia) or i can do something else.
So, basically my question is, since i so badly want to party and have fun and all of that and not just sit at home all day, do you guys have any tips or tricks to help me deal with this? Any words of encouragement? Everything is welcome!! Thanks!

[Valen*]

The best advice I can give u is to drink lightly. U will still have fun no matter what, because it's your graduation day! Congrats, by the way

[chixy]

The best advice I can give u is to drink lightly. U will still have fun no matter what, because it's your graduation day! Congrats, by the way

Thanks for the quick reply! Yeah i guess that's the best way! The thing is that i'm actually not that anxious about me drinking because i know i can handle a lot of alcohol. I was really stupid at 13-14 years old and i drank a lot back then, i could handle like an entire bottle of vodka without feeling bad at all. But that's a different story!
I guess i feel like i have myself under control, and i'm more worried about the people around me since i have zero control over them and their partying and potential v*ing! Hopefully i can just forget about it, maybe just block the thoughts if that's possible but it could get really hard if everyone is really drunk. I wish i could control everyone hahah!!

[Grace47]

Congratulations on your graduation! If you want just drink moderately or not at all.

[Syrup]

Honestly, if somebody is going to v* they are most likely going to dash to the toilet, and even if they don't, they are going to find a trash can or somewhere private. It's highly unlikely that anyone is going to, but even if they do, it's even MORE unlikely that you are going to see/hear it. My advice would be to avoid the people that are being sloppy drinkers and have FUN! You are going to have a blast and once you are there I doubt you'll be anxious. It's the 'build up' that's the worst. CONGRATULATIONS on your graduation!!!! Have a great time with your friends and don't let fear stand in the way!

[chixy]

Honestly, if somebody is going to v* they are most likely going to dash to the toilet, and even if they don't, they are going to find a trash can or somewhere private. It's highly unlikely that anyone is going to, but even if they do, it's even MORE unlikely that you are going to see/hear it. My advice would be to avoid the people that are being sloppy drinkers and have FUN! You are going to have a blast and once you are there I doubt you'll be anxious. It's the 'build up' that's the worst. CONGRATULATIONS on your graduation!!!! Have a great time with your friends and don't let fear stand in the way!

Thank you so much, this really calmed me down! Thank you, i'm going to try my best to have fun!!