I had to babysit
yesterday from 11am till 11pm and I am EXHASTED. Then last night at
about 4 I woke up and was EXTREMLY n*. I knew it was just anxiety
nausea because I could feel a little...urm...lets put it this way: My
intestines were working. So I got up and went to the bathroom and had
D*. I went back to bed still nausea but I tried to do Self Talk and
say, "Its just because my intestines are upset, not gonna v*." But then
I woke up at like 5:45 and the anxiety nausea just washed all over me
again. I went to go wake my mom (little baby, I know, but I always have
to when I'm anxiety) but she looked so peacful and she said she had a
mirgraine when she went to bed so I thought, better not wake her. So I
had d* once again and stayed on the toilet for about 34minutes and 53
seconds (There shouldnt' be a clock in the bathroom) and I felt like
crud. I went back to bed and fell asleep even though my stomach was
roaring like a hurricane. I woke up at 10 (its 11:50 now) and had d*
once again and then called my mom at work. She said if I went again I
should take an Immoudium (D* pill to stop it) and since I did go again,
I took one. Then I ate a rice krispie square and 2 choclate dipped
granola bars, but I am STILL n* and anxious and d* and I AM A MESS AND
A HALF. I am tired, don't feel good, and SOOO scared I am going to v*.
I am going MENTAL here. Bllahh someone please help...I might go lay
down with my duvet and heating pad but GR to it all!!![]()
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I was
going to go shopping with Stef today (the plus side to babysitting) but
I cant now. I'm also soo worried I caught something from the kids. I
was going to give them icecream and Kasia said: I have to check to see
if it has milk (no really, its icecream) because I can't have milk
because of my DIAREAH." and what if I did catch something from the
kids? And Marlee whos only 4 had a poo and I had to wipe her BUM. And
her poo was kinda loose and looked like corn on the cob ><
GAH I'm panicing..anyone there?</font>