Frustrated. Just venting. Agggghhhhh

[chixy]

I'm really frustrated right now. My emetophobia has developed more and more into agoraphobia whereas now I'm pretty much just as scared of people or myself vomiting as I am of myself panicking in public. It's terrible, I'm so disabled and isolated and I can't enjoy ANYTHING outside my home anymore. There are brief moments when I prove my phobia wrong and I have fun for like... 10 minutes? And then the anxiety comes back.
I can't go to the grocery store on my own anymore, and I get so anxious that I have trouble breathing and standing/walking properly when I go there with a friend. Same anxiety when I get into cars or when I'm waiting for an appointment and yeah you get it. Basically, I REALLY need help with this! I'm not in any anxiety medication or anything like that, I mostly just take tums and motion sickness pills as I have kind of connected them to relieve anxiety but its a very brief relief, and it doesn't stay for a very long time.
I managed to force myself out of the house today and I went to the psychiatric clinic I've been to once before (stopped going because my psychologist didn't listen to me at all. He was very new to the job and he wouldn't trust I really meant what I said because it "wasn't textbook symptoms of whatever") and when I told her why I wanted to speak with somebody again she said "Well you have to be like REALLY sick to get to talk to someone here, sometimes we offer appointments to people who aren't as sick if there is time for it but otherwise, you have to be like, really, really sick...."
Like hello I CAN'T LEAVE MY HOUSE! Every time I leave my house I have trouble breathing and I can barely walk or stand up straight because my legs turn into jelly, how is that "not sick?" It took be like a week to even convince myself to go to the stupid clinic. I told her that and she was like "oh you're that limited? Hm." And no other response. I'm so frustrated right now, I don't know what to do to get help with this!! Nobody takes me seriously.
I just needed to vent really. Thanks to anyone who actually reads this whole post!