.. Getting better?!

[Claire-]

So I never thought the day would come where I would actually post in this section of the forum, but here I am. It occurred to me today that I am SO much better at dealing with my fears these days! After two bouts of a sv (One a few years ago that made me v* and one not long ago that didn't), I've finally come to realize that when you're going to be s*, you KNOW you are. There's no iffing or butting. You don't even feel scared. It's just 'Oh.. Here we go again.. This sucks.. Oh wait now it's over again'.

I won't lie and say I'm cured, I'm not, at all. I'm still very depressed because I still have the fear of v*, and to think about it happening in the future completely panics me and makes me wish I could just end it all. But I am definitely coping better these days. No more staying up all night because I'm 'not sure' if this is the night 'it' will happen, because I'll darn well KNOW if it's going to happen and if I'm not entirely sure, then it just won't.

Anyway, I'm rambling. But I thought I'd share to give you guys some inspiration. You are so strong, yes you, just for getting up each morning and putting up with this total rubbish. We have the strength to overcome anything, and in time I'm positive that ALL of you will start making a recovery. You just have to believe in yourself!!

Take care everyone x

[Kittycat319]

I'm so glad to hear you're doing well! That mindset you shared above is really helpful and I'm going to use it to continue my own recovery!

[momtecz]

i too am so happy to read your post ... i pray you continue to remain on this path and know that YOU are in control and not the Emet. you are bigger than this phobia... continue your thinking of knowing that V. will not control u and yea there are times it may happen but why let it ruin your daily life... my daughter is the one with emet and about a month ago V. and ever since this time she has remebered looking at me saying " I'm ok Mom and why should i worry 365 days a yr about something that lasts a minute maybe even for one day!"ou too Claire remember this and keep fighting! GOD Bless honey! hugs