Feeling lonely

[LuckyNumber]

This isn't urgent, but I've been really scared, depressed and lonely for the past week. I've already said this, but my sister got a bug last week and I've locked inside my room, eating packaged food, or anything that my sister hasn't been around. But as she's starting to eat again, she's going for the same food as I am, which further narrows my diet. She just keeps on getting sick, at least 1 - 2 times a year since my phobia started (Coincidentally, she got sick once in five years before my phobia started). My dad tries to help me through it, but he doesn't understand my phobia as much as mum does. I've told him that vomiting is the equivalent of dying, or the end of the world, and he laughs as if it dramatic (I don't really blame him - but it still hurts). Mum is looking after my grandma and grandpa for the weekend, as they live an hour and a half away. My grandparents on both my mum and dad's side are getting towards the end of their lives, although I'm too worried to feel sad for them, which makes me look selfish while I don't mean to be.

Here's another dramatic story:
About 5 years before my phobia started, when I was 5 years old, my dad asked me what I wanted to be when I grow up. I said, "Happy". Ah, optimism... wish I still had it.

[KatieMills]

So sorry you are feeling lonely, I often feel this way too. I think that the biggest problem with being emetophobic is that we end up isolating ourselves and have so much time to just be alone with our thoughts. Is there something you could do to cheer you up? Maybe you could try reading something entertaining or thinking about the times that you were at your happiest. It will make you realize that things can be better! Also I don't want to pry, but do you have any sort of religious faith or faith in God?

[LuckyNumber]

Thanks for the reading tip... I haven't picked up a book in ages.
I'm not particularly religious, though.

[KatieMills]

Maybe a funny movie, sometimes just laughing makes me feel better. Hate that feeling of isolation and depression though, been there many times myself. Will pray for you even though you aren't religious, sorry you are feeling this way. Don't get yourself too down!

[LuckyNumber]

Thank you XD
Feeling much better now.

[Grace47]

i'm sorry you're feeling lonely. If your sister was sick last week, chances are she is long past being contagious and you can eat the same food. Sometimes, I think my emet is worse when I have scarier things than v to worry about.