Panicking... Bad memory

[bakogirl]

I've been stressed out lately. And when I'm stressed I start doing extreme cleaning and organizing. Well in that mode I tend to neglect my nutrition. Well I can't say I was fighting with my dad yesterday. He was just sending me non stop hurtful texts. It went on for 2 hrs. Like every 10-15 minutes. It was a nightmare. So as no suprise I woke up feeling off from stress and another message from him apologizing because he was drunk. I didnt accept his apology because this wasn't the first time. I can't take it. He seriously has more issues than me. Well I started to feel ill this afternoon and freaked out of course. But started cleaning and was ok. I ordered pizza because I really didnt feel like cooking.

I ate and was fine. But now I'm trying to sleep but I can't because I have this hungry nausea feeling. Last time this happened I had it till the next day and didnt go away till I had dry heaves. So I feel that again and scared to sleep because I don't want to wake up like that again. But yet I'm so tired my eyes are crossing.

[Mamafear]

I've been wondering how you're doing, and sorry you're feeling bad. I may be wrong but I feel pretty certain it's all just your belly demanding food. I would have a light snack and go to sleep. Your Dad needs to realize that he can't behave that way, and if it happens again, he misses out on 'family time'. Hugs for you!. Xx

[Mamafear]

I've been wondering how you're doing, and sorry you're feeling bad. I may be wrong but I feel pretty certain it's all just your belly demanding food. I would have a light snack and go to sleep. Your Dad needs to realize that he can't behave that way, and if it happens again, he misses out on 'family time'. Hugs for you!. Xx

[bakogirl]

Thanks Mama! I was ok. I busted butt on my house this weekend. It was much needed and even managed to grade all the kids work and make this weeks lessons. I finally talked to my dad, reluctantly. He acted like nothing happened. I have been having many ups and downs but I'm on another support group for anxiety and panic which is really helpful. People are very welcoming and you rarely ever not get a reply, which is nice. Because I know I post a lot sometimes so it feels like I get ignored. And I'm sure it's boring hearing the same thing over and over. I talked my dad into getting me promethazine because kaiser refuses to perscribe it because of the side effects so they only give zofran which works only sometimes. I know my anxiety doesn't help but all my GI issues cause nausea so it sucks. I was ok today. Just had way too much coffee :-) but it was good.