Bad night

[LittleFlo]

Feel like utter sh*t.

With Noro season approaching, I'm just obsessively thinking about the next time I will v*. I'm visualising it in my head and planning how I'm going to handle it. It's just exhausting playing it over and over in my head.

I'm having irrational thoughts about not leaving the house in case I catch Noro. Or just stopping eating.

I'm going back to the doctors on Friday as I want to go back to seeing a psychiatrist. I'm hoping that will keep things under control. I just worry thought that talking about it more and going into the reasons behind my phobia may just give it more emphasis and attention in my life.

Just wish there was a magic cure. Fed up of thinking about it all the time and ruining the here and now. If I as much hear the word v* I'm panicking like mad.

I don't know what I'm asking for in response to this but I just needed to vent. I'm due to be going to sleep soon as I'm working tomorrow but every night when I go to bed now I'm thinking, this could be it, this could be the night I wake up in the night and..

Or tomorrow morning I could wake up and I have a bug.

Sick of my mind working like this. So debilitating.

[Kristid04]

This is exactly how I feel, you are not alone. I agree completely debilitating. This time of year is extra hard for me I also have an appointment to go back to the doctor just hoping for some help. I hope your appointment goes well.

[LittleFlo]

I hope yours does too. I hate feeling so out of control of whether I get ill or not. I'm not sure if Noro season has begun or not. I daren't check the news. If someone mentions it to me I start to shake.