My name is Ryan. I am 20 years old and have been fighting emetophobia since I was about 4 years old. As I look back on my life, I've noticed that there has been times where this condition has controlled me more than others. My problem has always been that I've associated food with vomiting. I'm not sure what started this, but its always effected me. It's gotten so bad before that I couldn't even enjoy a dinner made by my mother. Although it isn't that bad now, one thing has always remained the same. I cannot eat successfully in restaurants, during family gatherings, or often outside of my "safe zones" at all. I get a closed feeling in my throat which is very close to the feeling of throwing up and then I can't eat anymore. I often have to go to the restroom in order separate myself and also because I simply feel too close to throwing up to be at the dinner table anymore. I've told those really close to me. They are supportive but their only solution is to simply get over it or not think about it. I'm tired of hearing this and I need to beat it. I have too much to do to let this bring me down. Please help.