Most emetophobics, from the threads I've read on this site and others, fear themselves being s*. I don't necessarily fear germs and I last v* a few months ago from bad sushi. Since I had no recollection of ever v* as a child, it was the first time I experienced it (age 23) and it wasn't too bad. It was repulsive but I wouldn't say it was as bad as I thought it would be.

I'm in the minority in that I don't fear myself v* but I fear others when they v* around me. Am I the only one?

If someone gets s* around, I am up and out the door in less than 5 seconds. I am as observant as a hawk in high-risk areas like hospitals, schools and buses so I guess I have mild "obsessive" OCD. I've gotten better in that I can now handle seeing random piles of it on the street (got used to it after seeing it a lot) and hearing it (share the bathroom with my sister). But there's still this underlying fear that I won't handle seeing someone do it in front of me; the thought of the combination of sight, sound, smell of it happening in front of me makes me tremble in panic.

I don't know why I'm afraid of it, I just know I am and have been since experiencing kids v* in class as a kid.

Have any of you done exposure therapy? How would one even expose themselves to someone else's v*? Did you respond well to treatment? I've seen drunk people v* in metro trains late at night and always flew off the trains right after because my fight-or-flight adrenaline would kick in. I sort of regret not staying and see if I could calm myself down while watching what went down.