Really freaking out, been feeling unwell and now coworker says they want to V*

[eatingscaresme]

I've been having a really horrible week. My grandfather has been very ill and in the hospital and we still aren't sure if he is going to get better. That cause my neck muscles to seize up terribly and I started to feel sick on Wednesday. I felt very N* as far as I was concerned (I do have a tendency to not be able to tell if I am N or something else) and also developed a stomach ache. I ended up waking up yesterday and still had a mild stomach ache, but felt really really anxious and almost shakey so I decided to stay home in case I was sick and just as a mental health day. Slept some more, felt ok when I woke up so I ate a plain quesedilla and did dishes and sorted laundry. And then slowly the anxiety/bad feelings started coming back, in particular the stomach ache. I did manage to eat dinner somehow...and just spent my evening with a stomach ache/freaking out.

I came to work today, and about 10 minutes after I woke up (and started thinking about if I felt ok or not) I got a stomach ache again. I haven't actually V* or had D* or anything. If anything I haven't gone to the bathroom much (I also haven't been eating much...). But NOW my coworker says she IS sick and feels like she could V* but is just "putting mind over matter" and would even stay at work if she V*. I don't know if I can handle being here now since I haven't been feeling well either.

I can't tell if my stomach hurts because something is wrong or because I am sick and am going to V*. I want to leave here so badly but we are already short staffed. I'm also supposed to direct my choir tonight. I don't know if I can do any of this. And what if I catch my coworkers illness? I can't handle this. I took a beta blocker. Been trying to not take a gravol or a benzo b/c my counsellor/psychiatrist say I shouldn't. And I'm supposed to try not to talk about it either to try to condition myself to not talk about it....but I'm so desperate and scared...someone please help me.

[MaybeBaby]

I have horrible anxiety n. But I will say if you had noro or some sort of sv you wouldn't be able to eat at all. And you'd probably have terrible d*. That's how I can tell if it's just my anxiety or I am actually catching something. I have had psychosomatic n* my whole life, I understand how awful it can be. Keep your chin up. <3

[Matilde Mar]

Why would your counsellor tell you not to talk about your fear or even take ansiolytics? That doesn't make any sense! I mean, unless there's a very justified reason.
I think you're just too stressed and your body is telling you to take a break.
Hope you're feeling better by now and your grandpa is ok

HUGS ♥

PS: OT, you're a conductor?? I sing in a choir