I am going to the Winter Wonder Land with my family and friends and I am getting so nervous heres why:
Its a BIG event in London and its expensive to go, so I am pretty sure some people will be ill there but still have gone and I might pick something up.
I dont want to wreck it for them by saying I feel sick or have a panic attack.
We will be getting back late on the 11:00 train or later or something im not sure but it will be late
The food their will be pretty cheap and im always nervous of that
I am just scared that I will feel ill on the day but feel to guilty and not want to wreck it because its me and my neighbour friend and her family, and me and her are basically sisters and I have known her her whole life and her mum found out she was pregnant with her the day I was born so literally every day. HOWEVER obvs she doesnt have this phobia and so doesnt under stand it. Her stepsister had a fear of it but only when its here or somemone in her faimly is ill but its doesnt affect her everyday life, and she is super succesful.
So I just dont want to wreck it or get ill from it or panic when we are there as its 2 hours or 3 hours away from where I live and im just kinda freakin out just writing this because its all coming to life to me! EEP
I will take my 'kit' with me, ginger, resuce remedy, my phone (for relaxing music).
Also loud music and noises and it will be cold, that is bad for my panic because I shake from the cold and loud music just scares me... because I cant escape from it.

We will also be ice skating and that freaks me out because if I fal and hut my head on the ice I might puke. I have seen people hit their heads and puke before like one time at school I was in medical office and a girl came in crying because her friend hit her round the head with a bat in PE and she was gonna go home and then she got up to go into the place where your parents meet you and she puked. I had worlds biggest panic attack!

So yeah im kinda scared about it and im just trying to reassure my self but I dont know how. Im most scared that I will pick up a bug, any advice and help or support will be SO appriciated! Also im not leaving the house until Sunday so I dont get anything in timw for it. I went out to the mall yesterday, how safe am I?! I didnt out myhands in my mouth but I scratched my face a few times and washed my hands alot but only with the mall soap wich is crap and I had my anti bacterial hand wash but I hear its not strong enough! Please help! Any thing you can say to help me is a life save atm!