It's been a long time.

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2012 was probably the worst emet year of my life. I started a new job in 2011 and loved it. From Feb. til the end of that year I only called in to work once. I was very dependable and felt a sense that I was very liked and wanted there.
I can't accurately describe what triggered 2012 to be my worst year yet. The anxiety, fear, the nausea; it all felt amplified. I tried my hardest, really. I couldn't cope though and ended up missing a staggering 23 days of work that year. I didn't even need to hear their words. I could see it plain on their faces. They hated me and wanted me gone but they wanted me to initiate it.
So I did. I left Dec. Of 2012 just shy of two years with them. Scared out of my mind about how I was going to make it I immediately began a job search. I was hired very quickly jan. Of 2013 and the process to actually start the job took almost three weeks. Those three weeks were very therapeutic. I set out a plan. The goal was simple-don't miss work unless you're actually sick.
So here I am now, jan. Of 2014. It may not be an amazing accomplishment but I feel that I triumphed this past year. I missed work only three times and each time I was actually ill.
After missing nearly a month of work in 2012 to just 24 hours in 2013..it feels liberating in a way. There were countless times where I felt dreadful at work. I wanted so badly to just leave but I forced myself to bear through. And by doing so it has helped me understand the way my mind works.
It has been months since I've had a panic attack over emet, medication free as well. Seeing smiling faces every day, people who can count on me. It's reminded me again that this life is too important to be controlled by something so miserable.
Seeing something about noro reminded me of this forum and I thought, hey didn't they have a triumph section? I don't even know if this will make anyone feel better. I mean the triumph is basically just not missing work. But for all the times I felt I just wanted to die, that life is too painful..if someone like me is able to take back my happiness and freedom then each and every one of you can too. I don't know any of you but I love you all.

Peace and love,
Jason.

[Matilde Mar]

I think this is really inspiring! I've missed a lot of things because of my emet too and it made me feel awful.
You must be so proud of yourself, this is a HUGE accomplishment! You were able to "postpone" your anxiety over more important things. Way to go!

[sarahh]

This is amazing, its so good to hear about a positive recovery J

[Kinetic]

I liked this. I was in a similar situation. Now I just push through the anxiety and the tough days. You definitely can tell when you'e actually sick and when your anxious. Once you know yourself you can make a change. Thanks for sharing

[jkl81]

That's really good. It's a thing I've always feared about a more conventional 9 to 5 ish job, that I might miss too much work and get fired. It's true though that you can usually push yourself to hang in there unless you are truly ill.