And also, what aspects of your future do you think will be as well?

I currently suffer from a long term illness which causes me constant nausea and of course a lot of anxiety. It currently leaves me stuck at home about 23 1/2 hours a day.

It affects my life the most in areas of food, food preparation hygiene, worrying about catching something, being very worried whenever I feel a little worse etc.

But recently I realised that maybe some of the things it might heavily impact are yet to come. The main two I can think of are:

1. Wanting to get married, and feeling I won't be able to because I will not want to get to close to my wife, especially if she has been out in the day and doesn't have such over the top levels of hygiene as me. So worries about catching something mainly.

2. Off the back of number 1, having children, we all probably know what children can bring into the house after school and if they became unwell I don't know how I would deal with it. I would be constantly worried about getting too close to my children too. Before I had to leave school for good because of my health, it was a real problem when anyone spoke to me because I thought along the lines afterwards of, I could have flu now, they were close enough to me to pass it on etc. Of course that heavily affects general social life too


At the moment I have no social life because of my illness but I have social anxiety, other general anxiety, depression and high stress levels so I don't know how I would deal with one anyway aside from my physical illness.

It is something that I suppose I have suffered from since the age of 5 maybe, emetophobia that is, and that coinsided with a time I was feeling ill a lot and seems to have come back with a lot of force over these years I became ill again.

Currently I just feel I am going to be ending up living on my own out the way somewhere, barely going out, both for physical and mental reasons.

How does it affect you and how do you think it will in the future and do you share any of the problems I mentioned?