Hello everyone,
My name is Elly and I am 19 years old and have been suffering from emetophobia for as long as I can remember. Recently I have had probably the most difficult time I will have in my life and my emetophobia has taken most of the shock. It has got so bad now that I rarely eat.. Maybe once in 24 hours if I feel like it.. Sometimes longer than that. I hardly ever get out of bed and fear going out into social situations and public. I spend most evenings in bed crying my eyes out because I feel so ill. I normally only panic at night because I associate being sick with night time as I have never been sick in the day. I struggle if my mum goes out and when she goes to work I can barely even nice as I get so nervous when she isn't around. I hardly see my fiancé anymore because I am to embarrassed incase I have a panic attack infront of him. I've got to the point now where I see no point in living anymore. I'm not living a life. I feel like there is no point in living anymore as I have no reason to be here. I cannot work because of my phobia and I can't get help really because I am so nervous about leaving the house so I think now is the time to talk to other people in the same situation as me. I have never done anything like this before so this is a huge step for me and I hope you all welcome me into the community and I can't wait to hear from all of you.
I just pray there is a light at the end of the tunnel because right now I see no point in carrying on.