So my heart is functioning at about 70 percent but my heart muscles are weak and my aorta is slightly enlarged.... They are going to go in tomorrow and take a better look at things through mr groin??? Very weird. Anyway since I came clean to the doctors I'm gonna come clean to all of you.... I've lied to my doctor for the past 15 years... I never told her about my phobia just made up stories that I was nauseous all the time so I could get pills so I wouldn't get sick.... I've had tests there is nothing wrong with my stomach not even IBS... It is all purely anxiety over this life altering phobia... Due to my actions I have done harm to my body that hopefully in time will go away.... All these pills have been my crutch for the last decade and a half.... Well that all ends tomorrow... When I go to sleep for my surgery I am gonna stay "drugged" up for the next 36-48 hours until there is no more drugs in my system. The doctors think this is the best way to get me off of the pills without giving me a heart attack from sheer anxiety.... I will b here for the rest of tonight and then not for a few days... I don't know if this site helped me or hurt me but I do know I am comforted by your genuine caring and support and knowing I'm not alone.... Thank you all and see you soon!!!!