Feeling Horrible for 2 days

[blackrabbit]

I have been dealing with this damn phobia for YEARS. I'm 25 and hated it probably ever since the first time I've ever done it. Yesterday I was hungover and felt n* for about 2 hours before I finally v*. You know what the WORST part about it is? Waiting. That feeling before you v* is the worst. I don't want to talk, listen to others talk, lay down, watch TV or even move. I just want to crawl into a hole and die. Over dramatic? Maybe for some. But for us emets, it's probably normal...right? The act of v* is also terrible but once it's done you feel so much better. Well I v* once yesterday but I have felt n* since. I am not drinking for a long long time now...I hate this feeling. And the worst thing is, it's the start of sick season, as I call it. I hope if anything, I just get d* and no v*.

Anyone agree or relate to what i'm saying?

[mhlancon]

I know where you're coming from! I hate everything about this phobia. Most of all the fact that I can't take care of my child when he is sick. Ive never been so drunk to where I've thrown up or even had a hangover for that matter. I think the part that scares me the most is the fact that its something that i cant control. If it happens it happens but I just cant deal!

[Pigatron]

Yes I totally agree. I haven't V in almost 25 years but I've definitely been N and had a couple of close calls. Feeling N is the worst. There's nothing you can do to make yourself feel better, I can't stand being around anyone when N, and it's just total panic mode for me. Also the feeling of not knowing if it's going to happen, or exactly when. Like, when feeling N, how does one know when it's really "time" and when to go to the toilet or whatever. Pure terror.

[Anie]

I totally agree also. That feeling of not knowing is terrible. When I am n* it's total panic, just like I was last night. I don't know if there is hope for me, if I will be able to have a normal life. It's discouraging...

[mmilden]

I agree, I am at work now and feeling so awful…like I could v*. I've felt that way for about 24hrs, so I realize if it was going to happen, it probably would have by now. I just wish I was a normal person who could accept that I am fine, and most of what I am feeling is probably from panic/anxiety anyways, not to mention the fact that I won't eat anything when I feel like this.