Feeling sick

[crazybeautiful]

I'm feeling sick and stressed out.


I woke up this morning and my tummy was hurting so much that I took a gravol and slept right through my first class. I didn't go to school today. I have a ton of homework due, I also have to go to the doctor's tommorow (which I'm really nervous about) my boyfriend isn't here for me today, he's frustrating me, and he told me today he hasn't been to the doctor in years which for some reason freaked me out and is making me worry about him.


Ugh, I'm just so stressed, I'm crying and need someone to talk to....but he can't come over...my parents are working and my brother is out of town.


I feel so alone and sad and sick.

[emms]

You're not alone! We are here for you! How are you doing now? Just take a few deep breaths, think what is the priority and go from there. You'll be fine! We are here to help! Hugs!!

[crazybeautiful]

Well..I'm finishing my homework now...I have my doctors appointment tommorow, then school, then work, then school, then work, then work, then work.


I feel like I don't have enough time to do anything.


As for him, I'm annoyed that he doesn't seem to notice how stressed out I am about the doctor (my going tommorow) and him not going at all. He thinks I'm just being paranoid, but I care about him and want him to be healthy. This is just adding stress onto me.

[pretty polly]

crazybeautiful - sounds as if u want to concentrate on yourself a bit
for now and not worry about your b/w for a while - he sounds like he
doesn't need your concern too much!

Your stress is what is making you feel rough - put on a bit of music
or a good film, close the curtains and dim the lights (mind you its
probably not dark over there yet is it?) but anyway you get my drift?
Just pamper yourself for a bit - forget school and work for an hour
and just chill..... everything will be fine at the doctors tomorrow and
you'll be back on here tomorrow night reporting what went on before
you know it!!!!

[crazybeautiful]

thanks girls, I appreciate it. What about him though? I want him to get a check up! Everyone should be seeing a doctor at least once a year for a physical!

[raindrop]

<!--
var SymReal&#079;nLoad;
var SymReal;

Sym()
{
window.open = SymWinOpen;
if(SymReal != null)
SymReal();
}

Sym&#079;nLoad()
{
if(SymReal&#079;nLoad != null)
SymReal&#079;nLoad();
window.open = SymRealWinOpen;
SymReal = window.;
window. = Sym;
}

SymReal&#079;nLoad = window.&#111;nload;
window.&#111;nload = Sym&#079;nLoad;

//-->

I've never gone for a physical. Or a general check up. I go to
the doctors when I feel ill, otherwise, I don't go! Before I was
hypochondria-focussed I didn't go for years and years and years. Don't
worry so much, it's perfectly normal not to go to the doctors for a few
years.



Sometimes, I've learnt, my worry and negativity can make the people I
love feel trapped. I always assume the worst, and I know it
annoys people. Maybe your bf just doesn't understand your
concern, he just doesn't SEE it, and the more you try, the more
frustrated he'll become. Not necessarily with you, but just
generally. I'm not saying your bf feels trapped or annoyed, but
when you love, sometimes you have to let go a little. His support
of you is a different issue, and one you'll have to resolve, but
resolve it you will, given time. Right now, focus on what you
need to get done, and take each day at a time. That sounds trite
but it's so true. Don't worry about all the things you have to do
tomorrow, or next week, or over the next month, get done today what you
need to get done today. Write lists, let go of your stress, and
relaxxxxx. Take some time for yourself and it will get better.



Thinking of you, totally know how you feel.

[crazybeautiful]

Raindrop, I appreciate the kind words, thank you.


I'm off to the doctors, school, work, boyfriends. Oh dear. :| what a long day ahead of me...