Repetitive Thoughts...

[Ashleyyy]

Thousands of thoughts pass through our minds each day; but occasionally there's that one kind of thought that sends me into a panic, the repetitive thought. I might be the only one who does this but I tend to associate current events with past ones, especially in relation to emet. For example, I just thought about how I should go to bed early tonight because I want to wake up early tomorrow morning. That one seemingly innocent thought brought me back to a time where I went to bed early, couldn't sleep, and had a huge emet attack. Now that past attack is all I can think about. I'm doing everything in my power to push the thought out and I'm trying to convince myself that I'm in a different place today than I was back then but my brain is completely fixated. I always end up in that place where I'm afraid that THIS will be the time that something happens or THIS thought will send me into a full blown anxiety attack. I'm getting so frustrated with myself even though I know that I'm not doing this to myself on purpose, it's the phobia talking. I had to vent about this a little bit before I go crazy and I'm curious, does this ever happen to you?

[mdgirl1977]

sure, it's actually normal. we get focused on something and its like a hamster on a wheel. try to distract yourself.