Experiencing high temperatures in Vancouver. I'm usually all for the heat but something about it here is very different compared to when I've been in Arizona or California. I also got my period two nights ago. I'm feeling awful and scared. Yesterday was horrible, I felt really sick and anxious, hardly ate anything. No d*. No stomach ache. I had a small bowl of pasta, and then a salad for dinner.

I woke up this morning just feeling weird. Some lower back cramps from my period, but my stomach just feels... unsettled. I can't describe it. I'm very very worried that I'm either coming down with something, or the combo of the heat and my period will make me v*. It's likely just pure anxiety, as I'm a bundle of nerves right now.

I'll hopefully work up the strength and courage to try some toast soon, see if maybe I'm just very hungry.

Just wish I could get a grip on this anxiety. I think I'm also stressing out because I'm going away next week for 7 days with a friend. We're going to an island with one small grocery store and not much else. I'm starting to panic about it quite frankly. I've been there before, I love it there - but my anxiety was little to none when I last went. This year has been horrible anxiety-wise. I keep thinking of ways to bow out, but I'm going to go on the trip; I know I'll regret not going. My friend is also emetophobic. Not as severe as me, but she can understand my worries.

As I'm typing this, I'm starting to feel a little hungry. Good sign, right? I don't even feel n* right now! Just anxious and "weird". Sorry for the essay, but writing everything out really helps me rationalize. I've tried a journal, but it's not really the same.

Take care everyone, especially to all of you suffering heat-waves. Cold cloth on my neck has saved my life, I swear.