Hi all,

I'm really glad this forum exists. It's hard to know where to begin. I have OCD so I've never been a big fan of any kind of illness or germs. However, v* has never been as terrifying as it's suddenly become this summer. It's gotten to the point where I really dread eating at all and have panic attacks around meal times. I think perhaps the major difference between me and some people here is that I actually do v* about once a month. It's usually after a large meal or first thing in the morning if I panic. I spend a large portion of my day worrying about whether or not I will and have a lot of anxiety.

I used to be a full time hypochondriac and feared all kinds of diseases. When my son was born, my fear of disease went away and my fears for his health and safety took over. I also had a stillbirth and had morning sickness with both pregnancies which didn't scare me at all.

My father died in February and my husband was hospitalized in May. Then, my husband went to the UK for a month and my son was gone to Summer camp. When they both came back was when the anxiety started.

QB