Before winter break I was just about to break down but somehow I stuck it out. During break I've been exposed and it's made me so much more scared to return to school. I was homeschooled my entire life up until this year, and I feel like I've handled it better than I expected. Like I was walking with some friends when we parted ways and the girl went to the bathroom and v* (I could hear it), and I barely freaked out. My teacher has made a huge deal about "outbreaks" of illness and... Well I freaked out on those. I just don't know how I'm going to go back, I feel like there will be so many more sick people. I don't think I can do it. No one at school knows about my emetophobia (I've gotten good at hiding my panic attacks/freak outs at school).