HI! Im new

[rayvin400]

Hello all I just wanted you guys to tell me if I have this fear, however Im pretty sure the answer is obvious.


First off Im 22 years old I go to a private college in Iowa and I live with my boyfriend.


Secondly, I know that this has probably been said before but I is so comforting to know that perfectly normal people share this problem and understand it.


Well Ok I dont know when this fear started but I can remeber doing all sorts of crazy things because of it.


I remember being sick when i was like 5 and being just fine with it, but as I went to elementary school, about 3 grade I remeber seeing kids getting sick all around me and I would be terrified. I would remember where the kids V*ed and I would walk around that spot on the floor for the rest of the school year! I also remember hearing that some child v*ed on my desk in 3 grade the period before me, and I freaked out, I couldnt sit there, and I actually faked being sick for like a week so I wouldnt have to go to class. I think I remember hearing that the stomache flu was going around in junior high school and I really ate nothing but half a breakfast for like a month....needless to say I was really skinny, and im sure that wasnt good for me. If someone V*ed in class I would have to leave...I would get shakey and nervous and just plain scared.


As I got older the fear still remained, and I ended up getting motion sickness later in life, let me tell you having this fear and havingmotion sickness makes for a hell of a car ride, I have made countless people pull over and let me walk the rest of the way home...Im sure i have made many people think that I am crazy. If i felt sick I would cram myself with ginger pills or pepto, so I wouldnt get sick. I dont even drink because I am scared that If i drink I will get sick....So I get a bit scared when people are drinking at my house because I know someone will be sick later.


I even fear having children because I really dont know what I will do when they get sick. However, I have a cat right now and its weird but when he gets sick I dont care and I clean it up, but if its a human I freak out! I went seven years with out V*ing and finally a year ago I got sick...I was so scared, but as I was doing it i was re-asuring myself that I was ok....and after it was over I felt relieved. So I think that as im getting older Im getting a bit better, but I still feel a bit abnormal. Just last week my boyfreind got really drunk and threw up nothing but about a cup of alcohol on the bed....I didnt know what to do..I thought about sleeping on the floor..but i just slept on thelove seat that night and the next dayI made him take the sheets off, and flip the matress over..and I manage to sleep on the bed...its really gross but I dont know what else to do!


I just wanted to share my story for the first time to others who understand! Im sure Ill be chatting with y'all later on! Thanks for taking the time to read this!Edited by: rayvin400

[shereerenee]

hi rayvin...


just wanted to say welcome! Isn't a relief to know you're not alone! So glad you joined us!

[tcsarah]

Hi there, welcome to the group! So much of what you say is exactly how I am. From how you reacted at school walking around the spot where somebody had v*ed - I would do that for months and months afterwardswhen I was at school -to how animal v* doesn't bother you. I am fine when animals get sick and can clean it up no problem, weird eh? Brrr, I would have been like you too if my boyfriend had v*ed on the bed [img]smileys/smilies_11.gif[/img]


It's great to come to this site and know others have been/go through the same things and react in the same irrational ways- makes you feel not so crazy afterall [img]smileys/smilies_02.gif[/img]


Tracey

[stella9]

You sound like the classic emet. You will get a great deal of knowledge and help here. Welcome.


Stella

[gubba]

WELCOME!!!!


You have found a place with lots of friends and good information and support when you need it.

[rayvin400]

Thanks all[img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]

[65roses]

Welcome! I am sort of new here too, and 22 also, we have a lot in common.

[rayvin400]

hi roses! we can be newbie buddies!!