Okay.. so I have a gluten intolerance (possibly celiac, but i'm too scared to get tested now). When I get 'glutened' I either get stomach pain and/or n. It usually goes away within 2-3 hours and then I go to sleep (it's usually in the middle of the night) and by the next morning I'm pretty much fine and can eat normally and everything. Well, I got glutened on Thursday and it was a particularly bad one. Pain, d, and bad n for a few hours. I finally felt well enough to lay down and sleep, and did manage to sleep a few hours. Woke up feeling okay the next day and decided to eat a banana.. it made me feel a bit sick so I pretty much just stuck to water that day. I just felt kind of bad overall that day, stomach felt 'off', tired, headache, etc. Then yesterday I woke up feeling much better and decided to try eating. I wasn't really trying to be careful, I just ate what I normally eat and thankfully didn't feel sick. I ate again a bit later and didn't feel sick so I figured I would be fine to eat dinner. Wrong! I'm an idiot though.. not only did I eat too much (i should have been careful and not just gone right back to how i usually eat) but I had some soda with dinner.. So, no surprise I felt a bit bloated and had some n after dinner. The n didn't last too long, but I continued to feel gross (like the day before that) the rest of the night. All the same stuff, along with being dizzy. Which is SO frustrating!! Not only because it was my fault but because aside from being a bit tired I had felt fine all day. And now it's like I'm back to square one with recovery. Today I woke up feeling a bit dizzy (less than last night thank goodness) and a bit of an upset stomach. I don't know if the upset stomach is just because of last night or whatever or because of anxiety. I've just been so ridiculously anxious.. I feel like my emetephobia has gotten worse since going gluten free (which was only a few months ago so I'm still pretty new to it) because I get n when I get glutened, and even when I'm not sick I worry about all the time. And I'm 17 so I live with my parents who both eat gluten and are not very careful about it, which is how I got sick..

I'm sorry this is so long.. I'm kind of venting because this is just so frustrating. I mean, in general it would be frustrating to feel sick all the time but it's like 10x worse because of this phobia. And to top it off, I have trichotillomania (hair pulling). I've been pulling a ton the past few days and I'm scared I'm gonna be bald by the time I feel better! I'm also getting braces on wednesday and my birthday is on friday.. which are both in less than a week and I'm terrified that I'm not going to be well enough by then. How do I deal with this? I feel like I'm going crazy from anxiety (plus the general anxiety that i get about the dreaded sv this time of year). Please help.. because I'm kind of at a loss.