my worst nightmare

[curlycuz]

Hello,


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I just have to get my story out,hope this doesn't seem egotistical or that I'm manopolizing the forum I just have to spill...


Anyway,I have always suffered with nasea,for as long as I can remember,not every day,but whenever there was a move or change in my life i suffer from nasea and panick attacks in that order.I am 22 and have a 2 yr old son.I live alne with him although I have a new lvely and understanding bfriend,I have huge prblems living my life day to day.I wnt put myself in any position where I know someone could throw up (like a lot of you)drunken people etc...


I dont like going t stay around peoples houses i dont know as I'm afrais I will have a panick attack(my symptms are always dizziness,nasea,blackouts and I HAVE to get outside)I take xnax for my problems witch helps with the panics but not the nasea which is the worst of all.


My son has gotten sick on a couple of occasions and I've dealt with it calmly and as quickly as i can but afterwards I cant eat or sleep for like 2 days.My ex bfriend got food poisoning and was v**g every 15 mins,I just hid upsairs for the first 3 hours and eventualy called an ambulance(after passing out on the stairs)


I'm totaly useless if anyone has even the slightest hint of a stomache ache I worry until it's gone.At the moment my parents have got a sickness bug and have been v**g all night and day as has my bfriend I last had contact with them last night and I am waiting nervusly for any signs of sickness in my son.I have only given him bland food tday as not to irritate any prblem that may occur.I myself have felt sick since I found out that my bfriend was v** last night even though I did not witness it.I have barely eaten barely slept and have been snappy with my adorable son all day.I am reduced to tears now with frustration of not being able to be the mum I want to be for my boy.


Having read your posts it does comfort me t think that I am not actualy a freak,or alone and that emetophobia is actualy the 7th most cmmon phobia(who knew!)Anyway,any supprt would be greatly appreciated as I am terrified and cant call my mum t help as she is sick,my bfriend is and I dont want to go out in case by some mirricle we havn't caught the bug from smene already but could get from a public place.


sick n tired of feeling sick about sick....


Thanks fr reading


greatfuly


Me

[suze]

Welcome Curlycuz, let me tell you that you are not alone in everything you feel. I'm exactly like you, and there are many many more here who understand completely. I too live alone and have two kids. I dread the time when they v*, but like you, deal with it quickly and calmly - remember for an emet to do this, it shows a huge inner strength, so you should be proud that you cope with it.


My parents were due to come to my home yesterday but my neice had sickness and diarrhea last Friday, so I asked them not to come until this Friday - sounds crule, but I just couldn't cope with the prospect of picking up the virus, or the waiting game of wondering if and when I or my kids will catch something.


Feeling constant and/or regualr nausea is pretty normal for most emets too. Remember if you're anxious at the moment then you will feel ill - anxiety causes the blood to surge to our muscles, getting us ready for the "flight or fight" syrndrome that accompanies panic. The blood supply to our stomachs is reduced and this will cause nausea, so it's a purely physiological response, try not to worry too much.


I know there's avirus going round but make sure you wash your hands frequently, and your son's, and this will really cut down the chances of you getting ill. Also, don't be hard on yourself, parenting is hard, you sound like you're doing a great job. It's OK to be a bit snappy with your kids, they need to see their parents stressed and upset at times. A counselloronce told me that the kids she deals with more often than not are those who can't cope with stress and anxiety because they think it's a failure to feel that way. This is often due to having parents who seemingly coped with everything - kids need to know that lifeat times is stressful, and things can be upsetting. When theyexperience these emotions themselves as they grow, they know they're a normal part of life,what they're feeling is OK and nothing to be ashamed of.


Hope this makes sense - and remember we're here to support you if you need it. Good luck, and keep us informed as to how things go.

[curlycuz]

Thanks so much for answering Suze,





You really made me feel a lot stronger(at the risk f sounding cheesy!)but really nice to know,we are in hour 24 since last having contact with anyone so I think if we can make the next 24 hours we should have managed to avoid it.


Is it me or does life feel completely jaded and surreal at times like this,hanging on,waiting and at the same time if you consider what I'm waiting for it's almst laughable,i'm sure it's very laughable for a non emet.


Anyway


thx again for your kind words


Lve me

[suze]

You're right, if you're over the next 24 hours you're pretty much in the clear. You're right about life too at times like this...if I hear of someone v*g, or that there's a bug going round school, even if one of my children's friends don't show up to school one day, I just feel like I'm sitting on a time bomb, waiting for something to happen - more often than not nothing does!!


I had my daughter v*g a month ago - two days later my son started. For the next week I hardly ate a thing, convinced I was next - it never happened! I'm generally OK when I haven't heard of anyone being ill, but when I do, life goes on hold and I'm obsessed with it. I think it's a control thing with me - I fear it because I can't control if and when it's going to happen.


Anyway, stay well, and let me know how things go.

[curlycuz]

well my sons asleep,


I soooo know what u mean about being fine mst of the time,just when everyone ets sick,it's like the end f the world and like you,I cant eat or sleep properly for worrying.


It's now been 29 hours since we last saw ANYONE or even left the house(which has been bleached blue in the mean time)and I have felt nauseous since finding out abut my relatives n bfriend being ill.I think that may just be my parania though dont you?I alternate between starvin and naseous.


Anyway I really hope we make tomorrw afternoon then I will relax a little at least,then my next problem will b,hw long do i have t wait until i see my bfriend?I dont know how long a bug could survive in his house,how the hell am i going to tell him this,we havn't been going out lng at all...dont want him to freak!

[suze]

I would actually avoid him for a few days if at all possible, but that's just me. I have actually never caught a bug from a partner or my kids (except diarrhea once), so there's a good chance you'll be fine anyway. If you could avoid him though you'd worry less.


Could this be a good opportunity to tell him about this - is he the kind understanding type? Tell him about this website, how common this phobia is, and how debilitating it can be - it might help alot. He's going to have to know anyway at some stage if the relationship is serious, don't you think?

[curlycuz]

yeah,





I can and will tell him,it's just thati only realised yesterday what a huge problem i have and that it has a name and other people feel the same and now i feel really freaked out.


I feel awful still,baby still aslep but me not and it's nearly 4 am,i still feel sick and anxious.scared.


No reason but it's nt nice,anyway I will say it,but am worrried it will sund ridiculous and small,whereas for me it's huge!