After a great Christmas I have been left feeling terrible this evening. Just before Christmas my mum was diagnosed with breast cancer and had the lump removed. The hospital thought it had been caught early and my mum would only need a little bit of therapy and then be fine. Today she got her results and actually the cancer was very aggressive and now my mum has to have chemotherapy.


I am so close to my mum and just hope everything goes fine. She is the only one who understands my phobia and is always so supportive. I am really worried that the chemo will make my mum v* and I am dreading visiting her after her treatment but I know I have to be strong and do it.


My husband has been away since September as he is an officer in the Merchant Navy. I really wish he was home but only a couple of weeks to go now. My friend who I would usually turn to for support has just lost her mum to cancer so i am trying to be strong for her at the moment. It makes things worse as her mum was the same age as my mum (53).


Why does emet always feel so muchworse when we are feeling low?. Already I am panicing that one of my children will v* tonight even though both were fine when I put them to bed.