Ive had emetophia all my life since as along as I can remember. It has impacted me for years in the worst way. Whenever someone in my family had a virus or even a symptom of it, I would panic and immediately turn angry like it is their fault. Luckily I am someone who rarely gets ill and hasn't had a *sv since I was in elementary school. My fear has been such a big part of my life that I don't think I even want to have kids because of it because of the germs schools carry. anyway....

On Wednesday my sister texted us that my niece was *v which lasted the whole day so naturally I was already in fear that it was coming for me and my mom since we were all together for Halloween. I was so mad when my mom decided to go over my sisters house to watch her Thursday to give us even more access to the germs (we live in a small apartment so its hard to escape anything). Now last night I had *d and this morning my mom has it. My cousins birthday is tonight at a hotel and my mom is thinking about not even going which is not like her because she never gets ill. I am now in a panic that the *sv has arrived and its only a matter of hours. Im afraid to even go to the hotel tonight because of it.

I freaked out on my mom all morning and overreacted. I am in a panic and my anxiety is at such a high. I know I should not act the way I do towards my mom but I was so mad she went over my sisters in the first place. I can't control my anger it really makes me hate myself. Now idk what to do about tonight.