V* really sucks. Overthinking it. The n*. Everything leading up to it. But when it actually happens, most people realize that the feeling of n* is worse than the actual v*. I have nightmares constantly about it. I wash my hands all the time in order to avoid it.
What's the worst part for you?
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I remember the v* itself being relieving after it got less chunky. v* the last few times (when it's mostly water) is relieving. Anytime before that though, I dread it.
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I dread everything about it, but I realize it might not be as bad as i make it seem. How do you deal with it?