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Yesterday I took my nefew to the park to play. While we were there, there was a little boy probably around three years old running around. He seemed like he had a bit of a cold because he was coughing quite a bit. Well, he started coughing really bad, that hacking cough that you can't stop and I knew that it was inevitable that he was going to v* as little kids often do once they get coughing like that. I told myself..the child has a cough, NOT the sv*, make yourself watch him v*. I sat there and watched the child v* by his father because he couldn't stop coughing. He v* three times and I watched every second of it. I was very proud of myself for sitting through being able to watch it, I know that sounds stupid. My heart raced a little bit, but I made myself sit there. It lasted maybe a minute and then the little guy was off running around and having fun again....It made me think, if he's three and he's not scared, whats my big problem??? Afterwards, I still washed my hands and my nefew's, but I wan't overly obsessive like it as I usually am. I know that it may sound stupid, but it was a huge obstacle for me to overcome.
The pitfall came for me when my brother told me that his roomate got food poisoning from Quizno's like a week ago and I started to get paranoid as I had just eaten there on Saturday. Funny how our emet works, I was so strong for a minute watching the child and then so week worrying about it!!! It goes to show you that we DO have control over the obsessing and worrying to some extent. I put my mind to watching and I did not freak out, but yet I freaked out at the slightest suggestion!!!
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