bear with me, this might be long...


as i've mentioned before, i went away to college last semester (fall 2005) and i transferred to a commuter college in january. the majority of my friends are all away at college, except for one of my 'best friends', who also commutes, so we hang out together every weekend. over winter break in january, when everybody was home i had my feelings hurt really badly when i found out i was not invited out to some party one night. i spoke to my commuter friend, steph, and my best friend kelly and they both apologized and blamed it on the fact that i didn't hang out with them a lot over the summer (which i did, i think they get jealous that i have a boyfriend). anyway, they said it wouldn't happen again. THE NEXT NIGHT, i went to get coffee with another friend that i went away to school with and was also home for break, and ALL of my friends were there! i've never cried so much in my entire life. i forgave them, because they're the only friends i have and i didn't want to be a baby about it. now, everyone is home for spring break. i still have classes this week, but right now they are all out, according to their away messages, and no body bothered to call me. i dont know what to do anymore. it's so hurtful but at the same time if it turns into a battle i know i'll be the one to lose. it's no use talking to them because obviously all of the conversations we had about this in january went in one ear and out the other. i am just so upset. i never did anything wrong to anybody. it's like i'm coping with the fact that they're leaving me out of all their plans, i just need to know why. sorry this is so long. i am just torn over this whole thing. i have been friends with the same people since i was 12 years old. i don't know why everything is so different now. any advice if anyone actually bothered to read this whole thing?!


kristina