I wasn't sure where to post this but i'm new to here. I'm Hannah (as you can probably guess from my user name) and i'm 19.


I have only just heard about emet being a recognised phobia. I've been struggling with this for a few years (can't really remember exactly when it started). Even trying to talk about this is making me start to panic and make me worry about people v*. I have depression and i self harm as well as being emet. I am more scared of other people v* but in a way it is linked to me i think cos i'm actually scared of catching it.


My phobia is worst around my sis to the extent where its completely wrecked my ability to spend time with her. When shes in the house i sit in my room with music on full blast and ear plugs in and try and avoid eating with the rest of my family at all costs. I just can't even be around her without being terrified she'll get sick. Its only really bad around everyone else if they say they feel sick or something.


Luckily since i've had this i'm the only one who's been sick apart from alcohol at uni which i can usually just about cope with for some reason. But i'm just so terrified of what state i'm gonna be in if someone gets a sv. Anyway i'm making myself panic by typing now and i'm also rambling so yeh hi!


Hannahxxx