This is a little long, but please, please read, I really need an understanding shoulder right now....


I have felt like I have been doing better with my emet lately until last night...I had a major set-back. My huband and I went to dinner with his extended family for his cousin's birthday. His cousin is married with two terrible bratty boys. We sit down at the booth and I am pinned in by other family members. I am finally starting to relax when BAMM..Someone asks the 4-year-old "are you feeling better now??" Then the mother starts in with how the kid was v* and d* all night and this morning. She starts talking about how she took him to work with her while he was v* and then they brought him to dinner!!!! I know that there has been discussions about the inconsideration on other people's part...and this falls right into that. The kid seemed fine all night, ate, ran around, and acted up as usual. I was in udder panic the entire dinner trapped in the booth by other people...I wanted to run so bad or leave and I couldn't concentrate on anything. I couldn't get out of there fast enough. When I got home I went completely OCD and washed the clothes that I was wearing, got in the bath tub and scrubbed head to toe, washed my hands, etc. I tried to explain to my husband how uncomfortable I felt there..like I was trapped and how bad I was panicing. He said that he understands that I am afraid, but doesn't understand why...I told him if I understood why, I owuldn't have this phobia.


Sorry for the rant, I am really upset right now and afraid that I am going to get sick. My stomach is upset and I will not let myself eat much. I obviously didn't eat much last night after his mother felt the need to explain IN DETAIL his symptoms right before we ate. I am having a really rough time with this and I am a nervous wreck. I can't get my mind off of it right now....I am so afraid!!! I also feel so stupid for continuing to let this run my life....