Help me please :(

[lucinda]

I just don't know how much more of this I can take...


I try so hard...I want to die so bad... I'm so sorry to be so dramatic but its just getting so frustrating. I'm so tired of being so scared, I'm tired of shaking, of worrying,and suffering. Why can't I beat this? Why am I so scared of a stupid bodily function?


I go to therepy 2 times a month (3rd therepist now) this one is for cognitive behavioral therepy. I tried zoloft for ten years and now lexapro and xanax. I just am so tured of all this shaking and anxiety attacks all over emet. Dealing with IBS, its just getting to be too much.


I just wish I could beat this, I'm getting so tired. I'm so depressed because I can't seem to life like a normal person.

[daffodil]

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way, Lucinda. I understand, as I have been feeling like this a lot, lately.
It is so incredibly exhausting to have this phobia, the anxiety attacks, all of it.
I wish I could make it all better for you, and everyone here. So much suffering!
I'm sending you hugs and calming vibes.

[violet]

hey hun,

Well even though you are on msn I thought I should answer this as well.

I know how you are feeling in this situation,this really does get you down and makes you feel like it is a form of punishment due to how you are having to live you life because of this phobia,but this is in no way a reason to die darling, you are a wonderful woman who has alot to give with a very good business as well, you deserve so much more from life but unfortunetly you are plauged with this damn emet as well, but know that with everything in the therapy you have tried there is still more out there and still more that you can try, so please do not give up hope on this,you are an amazing person and shall always be one,just remember you arre not and never ever will be alone in this situation,it may feel like it with not having many people around you that completly understand but I am forever here for you if you need me,you know that.

through all this look at what you still have,you have a job a lovely family things that do even though it doesnt seem like it now,things that make you happy.

There are always down times in life and there are alot more when dealing with this, if I could say something to make this all go away I would and id do a damn good thing of trying to do it lol,but all i can say is im here il help and im sure others will aswell *hugs*

xVx

[lucinda]

Thank you daffodil and Violet. I'm feeling a bit better now. I had a big attack, cried a bit and then took a xanax now I'm pretty much calmed down now. Its just so scary and frustrating, I can never tell the difference between anxiety attack and the S*F*. It always feels the same, I'm so tired of being afraid of it. I appreciate the replies, THank you so much!

[lgood22573]

I'm sorry you feel so bad. But I'm glad the Xanax has helped. I hope this
therapist helps you.

[lucinda]

lgood22573: thank you, I'm feeling better now. I've been going to this therepist for about8 months now. I like him but I'm not sure if he is helping with Emet

[marby]

Lucinda -


I'm SO sorry you're having a hard time. We all know how bad this phobia can get. You have to hang in there! We ALL can be stronger than this thing. Just take it a day at a time - hell, a minute at a time if that's what it takes. Maybe you should think about changing therapists if you feel he's not helping with the emet. Doesn't mean he's not a good therapist - just not the RIGHT one to handle this kind of issue.


Please hang in there - get on this board and rant if you need to. That's what we're all here for.

[kutekim1217]

Hi Lucinda Im glad you are doing better. I was wondering how the Lexapro worked for you? Any side effects? Kim

[lucinda]

marby- thank you so much for the kind and supportive words. I just could not seem to calm myself down last night. I always try to calm myself before resorting to xanax since it is addictive I'm scared to be dependant on it. It just gets so frustrating when I can't help myself. Attacks like last nights are hard because I feel like I am going to V* because I get so worked up and I have such a hard time slowing my breath down and taking deep breaths.


I agree, I do like the therepist, he is really nice and seems to help with some of my anxiety. But he know's little about Emet and we haven't made any progress there together


kutekim1217- thank you, I'm definatly feeling better today. I have only been taking th Lexapro for about 3 months at the 10mg dose. I took zoloft at the max dosage of 200mg for 10 years and did a switch to lexapro. Side effects were not too bad. I got some of those 'zings' (feels like mild electric shocks through out your body with some dizzyness) and just a bit of foggy headed for the first few weeks. I think it helps.

[californiagirl]

Lucinda, I PM'd you...................

[lucinda]

thank you so much Californiagirl