My Kids

[swoopes]

To those of you with kids, how do you cope? I love them so much and I don't want to fear them anymore. The same goes for my husband, he scares me so much. Before I had my own family, I could run from any situations that scared me, but now I am the caretaker. I would never leave my kids if they were sick, but I always flee if my husband does not feel good. Any time stuff is going around I worryso much I don't sleep. No one even has to be sickin my house hold and I spend my days anticipated it. I want to be a better mom and wife. I remember my mom sitting by my bed when I was sick and she made me feel better than any medicine. I want to be the same for my girls. I feel so defeated because they are young and I have a long road ahead. It is hard to imagine that I couldactually not care about this some day and I think that has held me back from getting thehelp I need. Despite all that today, I have my first appointment with a therapist andI am trying to remain positive that this is the first day of my road to recovery.

[donna1216]

I feel the same way. I run with the kids when my husband is sick. I WANT to run when my kids are sick. I've just kind of resigned myself to the fact that I have 3 kids and live in a place where more svs go around than anywhere I have ever lived before. What can you do? It's a hard thing to be a parent, and I just don't want to screw them up any more than I already have [img]smileys/smilies_02.gif[/img], so I decided to just not be afraid of my kids any more and to put them ahead of my fear!! I was at the point this winter where I wouldn't kiss them or hug them for fear of germs--I feel ridiculous and mean now looking back on it. I still take all my emet precautions, (hand sanitizer, not letting them share cups, etc) but I put their feelings and emotions first. Good luck, I hope therapy helps!!

[lgood22573]

I am so glad you made an appt with a therapist. Hopefully this will be the
hope you need to move forward. I have a daughter too and have suffered
through 3 sv*s in a little over a year with her. I think you are right, the
anticipation and worry is she going to get it? Does she have it already-
and it's about to happen? Is pretty horrible. I struggle with that myself. I
had my first therapy appt yesterday so we are a lot a like. The last round
of sv* my daughter went through- for weeks after, I was afraid of
checking in on her when she was asleep. I would go in there and look
and if she would toss or turn or make a noise my body would just freeze-
that is what made me realize I needed help. It is really sad to be afraid of
your own sleeping child.

[kate1966]

To ease your mind alittle....all emet mom's fear there kids...you are not alone...BUT......you will get through it and you will cope just fine...you may not think you are, but you will.....I was so bad when mine were little...well i think i was bad, but in looking back..i only remember one time when my oldest was soooooooooo sick...like 7 hrs straight v...every 30 mins or so...i stayed in my room, while he was on the couch by himself and my husband was at work and it was the middle of the night...i remember i kept asking my boy are you ok, are you ok...but i could not go in there with him....i still could kick my on ass for being so selfish...that's the way i felt at the time....but all the other times, and there were many, with both of my boys, i was always there standing behind them rubbing there back while they v....all the while holding a towel over my face so i would breathe in the sv particles.......so really really really, you will make it and you will be fine...those mom instincts will kick in and take over when you need to. You are way stronger than you think you are....and to keep your kids from turning into an emet also, you will do this for them. My kids don't have a clue about my emet and my oldest will be 16 in July and my youngest son is 12....so i have hidden it pretty well and they are by no means emets!!!!! [img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[lgood22573]

Kate- that is fantastic!

[kate1966]

Thanks...i mean, i did in NO WAY want my kids to live through what i have as far as emet goes...that to me is one of the worst things in the world to have.....and i pray every day that they will not become one...i don't think they will.